There are some things I miss from childhood but honestly it feels like the older I get the easier it became, or at least just these adult years

Idk. I tried killing myself twice but they didn’t work out. But after my last attempt which was at 19, I started to discover strength

How?

They were both overdoses from medication.

I ment how did you discover you own strenght?

The first time I overdosed right before I got locked up, but the police that took me in must have found out after they had already put me in a cell. And the second time I was at my ex bfs house but he found out I did and his mom took me to er. But it wasn’t expected bc in both cases I didn’t tell anyone that I did

Oops

Lol

Idk why I assumed that hehe

I wouldnt ask you of that :p

Lol I don’t mind anyway (:

But im glad i wanted to shere

share

i'm not sure that death would be easier than life

Thats the thing

How do u know that killing yourself wouldnt make things worse?

Well, I started thinking about how I was still here after my attempts actually, and the other miraculous things that had happened. But i also went to therapy and did a lot of work on myself too much over my late teens and early 20s

That’s what I believe now @J_G_ 👍🏻

i don't think that awareness comes from nowhere

The feeling of not beeing wanted or fitting in can be deathindusing

But there was also always a part of me that felt I didn’t rlly want to die and there must be a purpose for why I’m here

Right

Thats why u alive still i think

i know that i am not worth wanting, and therefore i am fine if nobody wants me

O:

Why?!

Right there makes me want you to find out why the devil?

i dont mean it in a bad way, i just know that i am no good. that's just honesty

I dont believe that at all

well, there's subjectivity for ye

And i realy think that deep in you dont eather

eighter

Why are you here if you believe you’re no good?

I mean this server

You must want to better yourself

well, the personality that i am in is temporary, it must go at sometime or another, why be too attached to it?

I wanted to say that. You would not be here if not

Ad to want to better yourself and have that awareness your heart has to be pure

Many ppl that are evil live in a completely unconscious state

You are talking about you body now @J_G_

Its not your proporty