Message from @Noctah

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2019-10-27 01:57:44 UTC  

Go fall in love with lifting weights, youll thank me in 1-2 years from all them gains

2019-10-27 01:57:44 UTC  

@Noctah Spot on honestly. I've been thinking about that a lot. It's gross how that is true...

2019-10-27 01:58:03 UTC  

I felt/feel empty without her melodramatic bullshit and constant whining.

What Noctah is saying is what used to happen with me. A terrible family made for bad social experiences.

2019-10-27 01:58:15 UTC  

@God Emperor Jigaboo I am in good shape now. I've been lifting since 16.

2019-10-27 01:58:33 UTC  

@reagoge Now the only way for your brain to stop getting attached to the bitch is if you find something else that fills that gap. Could be another bitch, or new hobby, new job... I dunno. You gotta first figure out what's missing, really

2019-10-27 01:58:43 UTC  

I have every aspect of life fairly fulfilled except relationships - I always ignored them.

2019-10-27 01:59:03 UTC  

I've had so many women hit on me and wait for me but I never approached until this dumb cunt. I am an idiot and wish I didn't.

2019-10-27 01:59:13 UTC  

@reagoge relationshits/ships are probably one of the hardest parts of life to get a "handle" on

2019-10-27 01:59:13 UTC  

@LPA FreeNeko (Hermit's Youth)πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡Έ Oh, yeah, I remember you. You have a fucked up history, I feel for you

2019-10-27 01:59:27 UTC  

stop being negative

2019-10-27 01:59:36 UTC  

@Noctah Companionship and intimacy. The sex was okay but I loved making her writhe in ecstasy.

2019-10-27 01:59:44 UTC  

look at all this as a learning experience and internalize it

2019-10-27 02:00:03 UTC  

@God Emperor Jigaboo I think that's why I ignored them so much.

2019-10-27 02:00:22 UTC  

I honestly regret not spending MORE time with her. I really do love her.

2019-10-27 02:00:24 UTC  

Ugj

2019-10-27 02:00:24 UTC  

@reagoge spoiler, youll feel the same way about the next pussy you get. "man its new, man i love to fuck her... oh man i just want to fuck her all day.... blah blah blah"

2019-10-27 02:00:31 UTC  

how long have you been involved with her?

2019-10-27 02:00:36 UTC  

Only since June

2019-10-27 02:00:40 UTC  

jesus fuck

2019-10-27 02:00:53 UTC  

@reagoge Intimacy is missing... You know, if you have that need, it's probably not going away if you just ignore it. You may bury it, but it'll still be there

2019-10-27 02:00:56 UTC  

Gotta confront

2019-10-27 02:01:18 UTC  

Hopefully you got you don't lose your head in the process

2019-10-27 02:01:19 UTC  

@God Emperor Jigaboo I know 😦

2019-10-27 02:01:30 UTC  

@Noctah How do I find something like that?

2019-10-27 02:01:35 UTC  

Listen to Noctah

2019-10-27 02:01:36 UTC  

Hell if I know

2019-10-27 02:01:46 UTC  

maybe some will disagree with my method but meh. dude... thats what 3ish months??? you barely know her

2019-10-27 02:01:55 UTC  

and honestly, you are 23... you barely know yourself

2019-10-27 02:02:17 UTC  

The best solution is to keep talking about it, and not try to bury it deeper

2019-10-27 02:02:26 UTC  

Otherwise you won't figure out what's the extent of the need, and what it's about

2019-10-27 02:03:35 UTC  

@Noctah I've never thought I deserved love so when she had sex with me and said everything she's said it really made me feel fulfilled. I never deserved happiness on that level and she met that. It's all illusory but it was more real to me than anything.

2019-10-27 02:03:54 UTC  

@reagoge You find it by first developing your self-love, think about it. how can you expect someone else to really "love" or be intimate with you when you are so hungry for love that you need to seek it out externally?

2019-10-27 02:04:10 UTC  

sex != love

2019-10-27 02:04:22 UTC  

@God Emperor Jigaboo You're right. I have already cut her down a lot and I am visiting one more time until the new year but I will probably just slowly ghost. I need to just digest all this and calm the fuck down.

2019-10-27 02:04:33 UTC  

True.

2019-10-27 02:04:50 UTC  

I know sex isn't love but it's a good manifestation of intimacy.

2019-10-27 02:05:02 UTC  

hell maybe cutting her out completely isnt needed but monogamy with her is a bad road to go down from what you shared

2019-10-27 02:05:14 UTC  

friends/FWB THATS IT

2019-10-27 02:05:17 UTC  

Ok one secnd

2019-10-27 02:05:34 UTC  

I never will do monogamy with her, live with her, have kids with her or marry her