Message from @God Emperor Jigaboo
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@God Emperor Jigaboo She was my distraction because life has been so good. I think I thrived in chaos growing up.
Go fall in love with lifting weights, youll thank me in 1-2 years from all them gains
@Noctah Spot on honestly. I've been thinking about that a lot. It's gross how that is true...
I felt/feel empty without her melodramatic bullshit and constant whining.
What Noctah is saying is what used to happen with me. A terrible family made for bad social experiences.
@God Emperor Jigaboo I am in good shape now. I've been lifting since 16.
@reagoge Now the only way for your brain to stop getting attached to the bitch is if you find something else that fills that gap. Could be another bitch, or new hobby, new job... I dunno. You gotta first figure out what's missing, really
I have every aspect of life fairly fulfilled except relationships - I always ignored them.
I've had so many women hit on me and wait for me but I never approached until this dumb cunt. I am an idiot and wish I didn't.
@reagoge relationshits/ships are probably one of the hardest parts of life to get a "handle" on
@LPA FreeNeko (Hermit's Youth)πΊπΈ Oh, yeah, I remember you. You have a fucked up history, I feel for you
stop being negative
@Noctah Companionship and intimacy. The sex was okay but I loved making her writhe in ecstasy.
look at all this as a learning experience and internalize it
@God Emperor Jigaboo I think that's why I ignored them so much.
I honestly regret not spending MORE time with her. I really do love her.
Ugj
@reagoge spoiler, youll feel the same way about the next pussy you get. "man its new, man i love to fuck her... oh man i just want to fuck her all day.... blah blah blah"
how long have you been involved with her?
Only since June
@reagoge Intimacy is missing... You know, if you have that need, it's probably not going away if you just ignore it. You may bury it, but it'll still be there
Gotta confront
Hopefully you got you don't lose your head in the process
@God Emperor Jigaboo I know π¦
Listen to Noctah
Hell if I know
maybe some will disagree with my method but meh. dude... thats what 3ish months??? you barely know her
and honestly, you are 23... you barely know yourself
The best solution is to keep talking about it, and not try to bury it deeper
Otherwise you won't figure out what's the extent of the need, and what it's about
@Noctah I've never thought I deserved love so when she had sex with me and said everything she's said it really made me feel fulfilled. I never deserved happiness on that level and she met that. It's all illusory but it was more real to me than anything.
@reagoge You find it by first developing your self-love, think about it. how can you expect someone else to really "love" or be intimate with you when you are so hungry for love that you need to seek it out externally?
sex != love
@God Emperor Jigaboo You're right. I have already cut her down a lot and I am visiting one more time until the new year but I will probably just slowly ghost. I need to just digest all this and calm the fuck down.
True.
I know sex isn't love but it's a good manifestation of intimacy.
hell maybe cutting her out completely isnt needed but monogamy with her is a bad road to go down from what you shared
friends/FWB THATS IT
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