Man.

I really feel like I gotta get this out, but I'll regret it when I am sober. But someone needs to hear it.

So, in addition to that I was bullied throught school.

As I might have mentioned earlier I'm obese, a hunchback, and have cerebreal palsy.

But these conditions are fairly mild.

I'm lucky I can basically function like a normal person.

But my abusive grandfather had similar features. So because I resembled him, my dad was extra hard on me.

So I was bulllied so bad in school that I decide i want to be home schooled for high school.

My dad actually says "are you sure you want to do that? You won't be able to go to prom, etc."

but the joke is on him

I don't want to have romantic relationships because I afraid I will hurt her. Like he did to my mom.

:/

This causes no end of problems throughout my teenage years.

But I work hard, and eventually go to community college.

But my parents hearts were never reall into the whole home schoolding thing.

There was a girl I really liked when i was a teenager.

But she rejected me. Amplifying my already low self esteem.

She married a pastor, had five kids, and is a perfect tradwife former tomboy MILF now.

Sometimes I wish facebook didn't exist.

Bottom line my teenage years were absolute shit.

But after that, it got worse.

I tried to work, but as a dysfunctional human, my self esteem ground me further down.

I was fired from all kinds of jobs, and didn't doo well in college. In any respect. I was afraid of girls,

I eventually quit college and got into helping my no chilled out dad with the family business.

But that failed.

and I finally got the only job i had for any appriciable length of time.

nearly ten years working for a Hilton hotel.

It was hell

an abusive work environment.

but I tried my best

tried to be a good goy

There was one silver lining.

Because of the family business thing and fear of being an abuser I was a kissless virgin until I was nearly twenty eight.

Then I met the Candiru My now wife.

The only girlfriend and the only girl I have ever been with.

I still remember the first time I kissed her. A moment for the highlight reel.

The first time we physicallly met

Shit turned out alright thrn?

She literally sassed her way into an employees area. Cuet as a button. Lookin' like a perfectly thicc ginger earth mother fertility goddess.,

No

we are getting to that part.