Message from @Grumplebee
Discord ID: 438559150964998144
I don't want to have romantic relationships because I afraid I will hurt her. Like he did to my mom.
:/
This causes no end of problems throughout my teenage years.
But I work hard, and eventually go to community college.
But my parents hearts were never reall into the whole home schoolding thing.
There was a girl I really liked when i was a teenager.
But she rejected me. Amplifying my already low self esteem.
She married a pastor, had five kids, and is a perfect tradwife former tomboy MILF now.
Sometimes I wish facebook didn't exist.
Bottom line my teenage years were absolute shit.
But after that, it got worse.
I tried to work, but as a dysfunctional human, my self esteem ground me further down.
I was fired from all kinds of jobs, and didn't doo well in college. In any respect. I was afraid of girls,
I eventually quit college and got into helping my no chilled out dad with the family business.
But that failed.
and I finally got the only job i had for any appriciable length of time.
nearly ten years working for a Hilton hotel.
It was hell
an abusive work environment.
but I tried my best
There was one silver lining.
Because of the family business thing and fear of being an abuser I was a kissless virgin until I was nearly twenty eight.
Then I met the Candiru My now wife.
The only girlfriend and the only girl I have ever been with.
I still remember the first time I kissed her. A moment for the highlight reel.
The first time we physicallly met
Shit turned out alright thrn?
She literally sassed her way into an employees area. Cuet as a button. Lookin' like a perfectly thicc ginger earth mother fertility goddess.,
No
we are getting to that part.
The horrible, neck breaking twist.
She's nearly ten years younger than me.
We met on a no defunct dating site.
I'd made wizard (if you get that refrence) bv the time we got married when I was 32
Happily ever after right?
Wrong.
: (
We made a baby. The wonderful and perfect Jerbear. Best little guy every.
But I should have paid attention to warning signs.
Relationships take work.