Started with my mom

Both moms tbh

I'm adopted

So I guess women leaving my life hits me harder than it should

I have a mommy problem

Sounds like you got a lot on your plate man. But anger is the worst counsel, it will ruin everything and can lead to you jail or death. You need to control it.

I understand that feeling. Mine was emotionally distant and stunted my mental growth from a young age, then kicked me out when i was 13. First girlfriend hung herself too

remember you are mad at me

Not rn im not cloae

Close*

Now I'm just gay as a coping mechanism

But its like I dunno how u do n it

But u can lose ur dad

Thats one thing

But for us dudes

I said you will get the message

losing our mom hurts much more

its like being a daddys girl but opposite

Mommas boy

If you don't feel pain at the loss of your mother you aren't human

I cussed ricky at a bad time for him

I mean shit I put on this big giant frame around me so I'm hard 100000% of the tike

Cuz im hiding the 10% that hurts

And fuck it

I'm sorry

to all yall

Bottling that up till it explodes every time won't work forever

No and its scary doing it that way

U gotta get a therapist brother

^

Cuz when I explode I start whats that word

Stalking people

Just to prove to them im no bitch

Which is not right

Talking about this is the first step to fixing things like that.

There's literally almost 2 dudes and 3 women that have restraining orders on me

Cuz thats how I recat

React

And its like damn

maybe I should have did that

Something in me tho EVEN SOBER there's a fire there