Message from @Ricky Beanbag
Discord ID: 758914591962693662
losing our mom hurts much more
its like being a daddys girl but opposite
Mommas boy
If you don't feel pain at the loss of your mother you aren't human
I cussed ricky at a bad time for him
I mean shit I put on this big giant frame around me so I'm hard 100000% of the tike
Cuz im hiding the 10% that hurts
And fuck it
I'm sorry
to all yall
Bottling that up till it explodes every time won't work forever
No and its scary doing it that way
U gotta get a therapist brother
^
Cuz when I explode I start whats that word
Stalking people
Just to prove to them im no bitch
Which is not right
Talking about this is the first step to fixing things like that.
There's literally almost 2 dudes and 3 women that have restraining orders on me
React
And its like damn
maybe I should have did that
Something in me tho EVEN SOBER there's a fire there
And there's no putting it out
Dunno why or how
But when im pissed off I dont kno2 how to do shit else put pour gas on it
I threw my dad to the ground last week
68 years old
Cuz he was trying to stop me from taking ky gun to the bar to make the cunt serve me after cutting me off
Likr
Wtf that shit ain't normal
My guy you need to find some zen shit to control that
Bro ive tried everything
I think you need help getting off the booze ricky
That's step 1
The booze I can get off of and I will
Oh fuck booze? Yeah thats absolutely step 1
The anger shit has never left
Turn it into something useful.