I have little rock I need to remove from my chest

it's something not very nice I wrote back in one of MGTOW forums

It was a while ago but still makes me uncomfortable when I said it

I'm here

@Donut Steel Tendies

@Rarespawn | (213) venetic conditions suck :-/. Currently in pain at the middle of the night, and doing some physiotherapy.

I did a thread on how I could troll a girl from one of my courses

it was some of the cringiest shit one could possibly write

taht was a bit more than a year ago

I've had this stupid idea that she was actually a lesbian but kept her male friends around her for confidence/utility

all because of a minor incident related to one of her friends

Damn

What was it about the girl that really irked you?

one of her friends asked me if I needed help with one of the blueprints we needed to make

I politely refused and he threw some insults at me

and somehow this whole damn conspiracy was born in my head

and you know what the worst part was?

Yeah?

Now, I may be wrong

but it started to seem that she was actually into me

and maybe that whole incident with her friend was some weird plan into getting me to talk to her or something

idk but regardless I feel awful about this

How are things now?

Last I saw her was a year ago

we talked a few times and she disappeared completely after that

Did you troll her or anything? Or it was just the thread?

nope I didn't do anything about it

I jsut went on a rant

hell even the mgtow people were a little disturbed and told that I'd get into trouble over this

Do you still feel hatred or something of that sorts towards the girl or the friend who insulted you?

Not at all

why would I feel hatred against her?

I mean at the moment I felt threatened

Yeah

her friend is a total weirdo though

he still couldve been a niceguy (tm)

Sounds like a good friend or an orbiter. Don't want to use the term. But sounds like it.

Anyways, you must feel the cringe entirely. You must remember the moment. Let it be a lesson to you.

I guess so

tbh part of the reason I was attracted to the TRP was my general mistrust towards women at the time

Mistrust?