and maybe that whole incident with her friend was some weird plan into getting me to talk to her or something

idk but regardless I feel awful about this

How are things now?

Last I saw her was a year ago

we talked a few times and she disappeared completely after that

Did you troll her or anything? Or it was just the thread?

nope I didn't do anything about it

I jsut went on a rant

hell even the mgtow people were a little disturbed and told that I'd get into trouble over this

Do you still feel hatred or something of that sorts towards the girl or the friend who insulted you?

Not at all

why would I feel hatred against her?

I mean at the moment I felt threatened

Yeah

her friend is a total weirdo though

he still couldve been a niceguy (tm)

Sounds like a good friend or an orbiter. Don't want to use the term. But sounds like it.

Anyways, you must feel the cringe entirely. You must remember the moment. Let it be a lesson to you.

I guess so

tbh part of the reason I was attracted to the TRP was my general mistrust towards women at the time

Mistrust?

Yes

In fact, I've had a mistrust against people in general

but maybe the fact that I was attracted to women made me feel vulnerable in that regard so I just started avoiding them completely

I still have the reflex but I've realized it's in most part unjustified

man trp can fuck you up

Amen to that

I've had, still have some, mistrust of women and people in general as well. I've found out, with some help, that it was due to having to repress my emotions or my thoughts since I was a child in some way. And having people who weren't really friends.

I still have issues opening up to people, which trp exacerbated, but one step at a time.

I think I can relate to some extent

You're American, I presume?

Nope

Canadian? European? Just asking for cultural context.

European

eastern to be exact

Oh nice. I was in Eastern Europe a few days ago.

Indian here.

A lot of Indian guys in my uni's campus

Yeah, indian education system stinks. Studying abroad is a good option. I'd do it if I could afford it too.

What country did you visit?

I visited Germany, Austria, Hungary, Croatia, Czech Republic and Poland.