Message from @Donut Steel Tendies
Discord ID: 453696087757160458
but my OCD is pretty manageable now
mainly just Pure O these days
I have Pure O, and probably some mild compulsions, got diagnosed in 2016 after a panic attack. What I have found out is, that I hold emotions with a tight grip in my mind. I can't let them go. I associate negative emotions with pleasurous highs sometimes, like a sadist or masochist would.
Whenever I have a bad day, I start obsessing about things. About everything. I'm 20 and I've genetic balding. I keep obsessing about how I'll look and how I look right now. I've an autoimmune condition known as ankylosing spondylitis and I keep obsessing about that too. On a similar vein, trp thinking sometimes reassures me about my obsessions.
I take medications, and I converse with a guy who's pure O and also who's an author as well is very functional and whom I want to emulate. But sometimes the trp thoughts linger back and I go back to the same person I was on trp.
I have difficulties typing my thoughts, and English isn't my first or second language, so apologies.
Anxiety disorders are tough
Mainly because they fuck up your perception of reality
Definitely
Have you visited exredpill subreddit?
Yeah
Not much there
Th stickies are quite good. But yeah recent activities are scarce.
Is this chat alive again?
I was actually thinking
do you think we should expand to helping incels too?
No incels
Why?
Don't worry about your hair loss. My husband is bald and I can't imagine him any other way. His pics from high school look strange to me. I think he looks much better bald. We've been together for 7 years.
Also, don't stress over your medical condition. I have a genetic blood clotting disorder. I had a pulmonary embolism when I was 25, and I am on blood thinners for life. For a long time I was really depressed over it and then I came to the realization that there are people who have it much worse. At least my condition is manageable and I know about it.
Hey, does anyone here have time for a little chat?
I have little rock I need to remove from my chest
it's something not very nice I wrote back in one of MGTOW forums
It was a while ago but still makes me uncomfortable when I said it
I'm here
@Rarespawn | (213) venetic conditions suck :-/. Currently in pain at the middle of the night, and doing some physiotherapy.
I did a thread on how I could troll a girl from one of my courses
it was some of the cringiest shit one could possibly write
taht was a bit more than a year ago
I've had this stupid idea that she was actually a lesbian but kept her male friends around her for confidence/utility
all because of a minor incident related to one of her friends
Damn
What was it about the girl that really irked you?
one of her friends asked me if I needed help with one of the blueprints we needed to make
I politely refused and he threw some insults at me
and somehow this whole damn conspiracy was born in my head
and you know what the worst part was?
Yeah?
Now, I may be wrong