like say a true sociopath, no set of circumstances

will ever make a true sociopath happy

even total control over reality

they don't even know what satisfaction is, only dissatisfaction

it's like a blind man may not understand sight

but can still rue his blindness

I have been completely happy in the last 5 years

where I basically wanted nothing to change and was happy with my friends and life

that's a good start

welll, within the last 5 years

I can remember what it was like

PERSONAL HAPPINESS IS NOT THE QUESTION

SOCIAL STABILITY IS

HAVING A NON FAILING SOCIETY

PERSONAL HAPPINESS COMES THROUGH PURSUIT OF SANITY

that's a big part of it, yes

AND EVASION OF INSANITY

most of the reason I am so angry and think everything sucks so much is because I live in a society that encompasses the worst of capitalism and communism simultaneously, is ugly and filled with concrete and cars, and is filled with evil POC retards constantly drunk, high and sleeping around, and fat also

basically the pain in me is the pain of living in a dysfunctional time and place

it need not be that way though, which makes it less convincing

because you can realize all that and not be angry too

American society is a society of group enterpreneurship

do you love any person @Deleted User 57835c2c

Everythign that's Western in it, is Western in the wrong way

Except perhaps it's once remarkable justice system

keyword "once"

yes

I can't realize all of that and not be angry fallot

I really can't

I see what humanity has built and realize it is mutually exclusive to my dream of untouched landscapes

and I just hate and hate and hate

that is when I will go on the internet and look up starving africans and laugh hysterically

http://jamaica-gleaner.com/sites/default/files/styles/jg_article_image/public/article_images/2011/08/24/bc-apnewsdigest4-10pm-ref.1.jpg?itok=QurAhdqQ die dalit die

lol

I seriously cannot stop giggling every time I look at the face

I am going to eat my edamame while looking at starving black baby pictures

apparently if you become a psychiatrist it's a rule that you have to undergo psychotherapy yourself during your later stages

I am seriously going to look at the psychotherapist and ask him "are you sure you really want to do this?"

I think I will mess up the therapist

they will leave the room with this dead look in their eyes

there are plenty of psychiatrists with personality disorders