Oh. So that’s for school. Okay now I get it <:TheodoreRooseveltLaugh:585130800870195200>

@GT1646 not sure what to tell you man. Time will eventually heal the wound.

I've been hearing that for 5 years.

@GT1646 you have to just keep moving.

Honestly, go travel and be a degenerate for a while. Not something I recommend often, but sometimes a person needs it

I don't have money

I'm in debt

Go pop some mols and bang a rave slut. I lost my dad several years ago and the girl I was planning to propose to broke up with me at his funeral. I was a mess for 3 months, was ready to end it all and then I went to my first rave and did a lot of things I shouldn't have, but it gave me a wake up call on what life has to offer. I wish I didn't do the drugs, but at the same time I probably wouldn't be around today if I hadn't.

I don't do drugs and I'm saving myself for marriage

Just find things to do that push you out of your comfort zone. A lot of that can be cheap and give you plenty of perspective

That's good. I tried, until that girl ruined it for me. Things can fall off the wagon fast

Almost everything is out of my comfort zone. I have no friends and I hate doing things alone

My existence as it stands:

Go to school
Come back
Go to room
Leave to get food
Bring food back

Go to sleep (at least try)

And repeat

Have to start small then. Every little thing helps. Even forcing yourself to make eye contact with people you walk by is an achievement that builds you up

In all honesty

I'm hoping for like a heart attack

Or something like that

I'm too tired of this.

Hit the gym or maintain exercise, cut out processed foods, get plenty of probiotics, and make sure to get enough sleep

It's easy to fall asleep if you carb load and hit the gym before bed

I was exercising consistently until I blew out my knee

All I eat are processed foods

I can't sleep

I have diagnosed insomnia

I'm on meds for it

Ah, injuries suck. I was most depressed after I was out for a year with shoulder surgery

Took them 4 hours ago and here I am. Awake.

I don't know shat to tell you. I would request medication, honestly. I used to be against it, but some times it's the last line of defense and can be used temporarily to get yourself back on track

What do you mean by medication

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Either for depression or sleep.

They both affect each other, but only you know which one is the root cause. I used to be so against mind altering drugs until I realized some people just unbalance themselves. If you take something temporarily to pep you up and get active again or socialize more, you can quit them and keep the serotonin levels up naturally.

I think of it like a shock to the heart to get it beating again.

I have sleep meds

My doctor prescribed anti depressants and I refuse to take them

@Deleted User the idea of SSRIs terrifys me

Stories of people turning into emotional zombies who have to stay on it 24/7 or they go back to being depressed...

Those people typically don’t think for themselves. They take whatever is prescribed. You know your body best and you test out dosages that work.
Serotonin syndrome is a real problem,but only if you rely on the drugs too heavily and for too long.
When I went raving, that was essentially an ssri. It helped me tons and I didn’t want it to stop, but I made sure to replace the drugs with other things like hobbies and friends and exercise etc.

I won't be able to swap it for anything

Cocaine isn't a drug

It's a natural plant