yeah fuck off

nobody's missing you

:<

I am

nah

Spaquo plz no kill

i didn't go too deep

I like FTP

it just looks like i went through a forest in a tee

Dont cut yourself for fuck's sake

Thats scars

I only use TFTP

i only use scp

i mean he's gotta learn i guess

Plus you are always on here talking about how you feel

Yiu clearly need someone to talk to

Why dont you get someone that can help you

Youll get mixed reactions here

Amd being depressed youll just pick the mean ones

whoever did the giveaway for screencheat which i won I love u because this game fucking rules

because there's a layer of abstraction vs talking to a shrink or s/t

you can easily back away from an online conversation or s/t if it gets too much

common thing for people ventinv, v useful honestly

pls dont kys though @spaqin

screencheat is super fun

True, but its better to see someone if you clearly desire for it

nah i'm not good at it

Yeah killing yourself is godawful

The aftermath

😖

that's not just you, killing yourself is fkn hard, i've been there plenty, made plenty attempts over the less emotionally stable periods of my life

that's why i'm not using my airbagless, absless car to hit a tree

that's too much cleaning up

God seeing my 14 year old little sister broken like that demanding to know why I tried

Its burned in my mind

tbh when i was in that state of mind i generally saw that sort of stuff as a _good_ thing, might not be the best angle

Its truly not worth it

its ok bros im being medicated for 7 years now

a lot of people on that state of mind will see the pain it causes others as a positive, they're remembered they care now sort of thing

I have something akin to crohn's and Im in pain sometimes

i'm kinda neutral towards this

gotta focus on like

lost potential

Yet death is less enjoyable

Neutral because you dont feel

maybe cuz i haven't tried hard enough

Tbh the hardest lesson to learn is

even if it;'s something as trivial and meaningless as a fucking anime backlog, like

there _IS_ shit you still wanna do

you can't if you're dead

The off button is depression, the on button is happiness.

hl3 will never come

i'm done

@spaqin https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2eEe1DdNyio

hl3 is gonna be a movie tho

directed by thew star trek reboot guy

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the bird is singing all star

good bird

You dont start happy, you start sad, you need to work hard not to be sad, but you give up happiness and be more sad to make more happiness. Worst lesson you'll ever learn.

Parts of you will be broken and life doesn't get easier, but if you work for it you'll be able to appreciate and have happy things.

Nigga it was fake and gay sadposting

Im really high right now

time to move on to birbs

I appreciate it if you would be nice to me

not even sending pics because my tries are too pathetic

Dude dont fucking do it

take up rugby if you feel like hurting yourself.

Stop talking to yourself like thie

It doesnt sound like it

But depression is a mindset

You can overcome it

Theres good medication if you need it

And good people to talk to that will help you ouy

well, it is a chemical imbalance, but one that's been demonstrated treatable by cbt

brainne is a weird organ

There's people like you that have been there as well in this very chat

Ye it is

realtalk if you have any means to, go see a shrink, give cbt a go over meds imo

Ye

See a shrink tho

They wont force you

You have full control

no time

exception: if you have yourself committed

Tbh wanting to be dead gives you full control

You are a clean slate

No laws stop you

🦐 👌

but you have to go out of your way to be committed

you have to either pay for it and fill out a mountain of paperwork or like

You can be a Goddamn racecar driver

try to kill yourself while in the little 72 hour state hospital thing

Mine was 2 weeks

so avoid those two things and you have full control of the situation with a shrink

Some woman tried to jump when I was there

@Shrimpf depends on where you are, probably

I have never thought about suicide again

Well the occassional human thought of

i have but i always remind myself i still have work to do