pipe tobacco is very different from cigarettes

*Well, I fucked this one up really bad.*
@Fash Dragon Yhea, I know, but drug use, is not a thing I tend to take lightly, especially for something as hardcore as xanax.

I broke down and had a few on Saturday because I was partying

Hey man moderation

Not bad

it happens

@Dangerlurking lol dude I don't either. I ODd on that shit back in 2016.

It’s better than other things out there

That was the worst time of my life

Everyone that quits benzos wishes they never started

@Fash Dragon Yhea, when you hear stories about stuff like that, and their long term effect on people, you tend to get a bit heavy handed in your approach to it.

There’s always a better option

Yep, I certainly do

I feel you Rex

There was a time when half my paycheck went down my throat, into my lungs or up my nose

I don’t like to see our people take the path of drugs

I don’t like it either

@FashyGoy1488 Well, what matters is that you are fixing the issue.

Indeed

I am

Benzos are like a ball and chain

I will be stronger after this

I’m just weak for now

It felt so good at first, I was so relaxed

I feel weak anyways

taking 2x .5mg per day

That’s low, not bad

I took like 11mg in a day once

In the beginning

Oh ok

After 4 years I was on 6-8mg per day

And you quit that entirely?

and sublingual Ativan for when I had panic attacks anyway

@Hadrian That's how most people get into weed, an escape away from their issues.

not week, xanax

Hadrian are you fully off benzos?

My psychiatrist prescribed it along with the rest of my cocktail

Yes, haven't touched one since August 2016

I was connecting the two, in how people get into them.

Wow!

Hadrian wow

I’m proud

I did say I'd been there

What was your process to quit? Taper also?

yeah but a long taper

Yeah I’m kind of being crazy with this jump

by the time I lost my insurance I already had like 2 month supply left

@FashyGoy1488 How are you reacting to it.... so far?

I just want a boost forward through the quitting process

So far it’s bad

I can hardly drive or work or concentrate

Still supremely sucked when I jumped down too fast

Luckily it’s my easiest and last semster

Yeah man that’s me Hadrian

I jumped fast

But I will go slow after this jump

Once I get stabilized on 2mg per day

There were multiple days on end when I didn't get out of bed except to go to the bathroom or get some water

Yep

That’s how I feel

Exactly

@FashyGoy1488 Well, at least it is tolerable for nkw.

Barely but yes.

I’ll get through this

For the quite bad addictions, mostly for people who took it recreationally, they tend to have reactions like those of heroin/meth addicts.

I had to stop taking Wellbutrin at the same time too

It’s not just recreation Rex

because taking that during benzo withdrawal causes seizures

@FashyGoy1488 I know.

If you’re prescribed it and you stop, you’ll be just as “dopesick”

Benzo withdrawal is worse

I've done meth. Benzo withdrawal was worse

Yeah it is

I did an opiate detox a long time ago

opioids was the one thing I never touched

That sucked but it wasn’t as bad as my first benzo detox

This is my second benzo detox

I'd rather have a month of coke hangovers than a week of benzo sickness

Full time college and work and TWP and my own hobbies was all too much for my anxious ass

oh god, the coke hangovers

But I didn’t know then what I know now

So I am confident I can handle this shit without drugs. In time.

Right before I quit, my job wrote me up for taking too many breaks

What they didn't know is I was taking those breaks to go do a bump in the bathroom

Yeah my job is being cool about it luckily

I’m a driver and I’ve been working inside

I can’t drive much

the xanax made me so tired with the dosages I was on

Never really got tired from it tbh

I had to do coke during the day so I could work

Shit. That sounds awful

@Hadrian Jesus.....

It was probably a combination of that and the mood stabilizers and antipsychotics I was on

I think Risperdal at the time

Bad for the heart to go up and down like that

Glad you’re doing better

Well there's a reason I quit that job. Too much stress

The stress caused every one of my symptoms, except for the ones the drugs caused

I feel that

@FashyGoy1488 And just combining medicine and alchohol can be fatal, imaging taking xanax and coke at the same time!