nm. just chillin

I just got home from visiting the old man

boy does he have some life lessons

https://youtu.be/oqdiN5cFgZs?t=94

visualization of the redpill-rage

what kind of lessons?

**spread the wisdom**

He was married twice

Can i get a woot woot?

two break ups

**oof**

he's 84

and his body is breaking down

that sucks

he was an incredibly capable man his whole life, awesome engineer, great fisherman etc

now his knees are constantly in pain and his grip strength is fuck all

and his mind isn't as sharp as it used to be

and he seems to hold a lot of regrets and talks about his life like he has been hard done by

I have enormous, gigantic respect for him really

because despite the shit he's been through, two failed marriages, recovery from several serious accidents... he has held it together and still owns and lives in his own house worth over 300k

but it's just sad to see him reaching the end of his life and knowing it

at this stage of his life, he says so much stuff that's exactly mgtow/redpilled in nature

Hey forgive me if im offensive, thats really not be goal... But isnt there a time in life where youre just ready to go? Especially if youve done a lot mof awesome stuff

he even said he is just going his own way now

i always think about it bro, i was already crying after my breakup, but being divorce raped

everybody's gotta go at some point. it sounds like hes had a long and good life. and thats great

blaqshiep he talks a lot about how he sees no point to his life anymore

in his mind he probably is ready to go]

Theres gonna come a time for, for sure, where i will not want to prolong it

he's still relatively self sufficient

Wont kill myself, but just like let go ya know

but he can't do the things he once loved to do. Now he just watches TV and reads a lot

And its ok... For me ill be like 60-70

Yeah see

be okay with dieing, just keep yourself occupied till the moment comes

Thing is man I still love him, my niece still loves him, he's a well loved and respected man

I wouldn't wanna live like that... But once yoi accept that yoi dont really have a need to miss life

I wish he was still physically capable

I'd love to have taken him fishing

Nah i wouldnt do that

This isn't your practice life

He can feel that

unfortunately

He can feel that you want him that way

well Shaunuss, we don't know that

Just respect him for the life hes lived

Id do whatever you could to not make him wish he could do this or that

But to go fulfilled

That's how i wanna go... Fulfilled. I did good. Wasnt perfect... But it was good

Does he play cards?

I don't say any of this kind of thing to him

I just let him monologue and remind him that he's done heaps for me and that I appreciate it

Yeah... Its like that

Spending time is good. Id say frequency is better than length

Do you guys fear death?

Depends... Most of the time no

But kinda because im not fulfilled

I think there are worse things to fear..

I know im not ready

60-70 diff story

I think my attitude will be similar to my dad's

I'll reach the twilight years of my life and wish I could still do what I did earlier

I am okay with dieing, but even with no sense of purpose, i would still fight to the utmost to live as long as possible capable of doing things

You want to find purpose

I can give you a key

thats what life is about

be occupied with giving your life a purpose

It has to do with your subconscious

Going into your cave

Mapping yourself like its a foreign object

Then using your neocortex to plan out the best route, what supplies youll need

The thinking part of your brain is less you thay the subconscious

Than*

When neocortex aligns with, will power over emotions (mamillian brain), and subconscious self...

You're perception vastly changes. You think less in language... You sense more in yoir environment

I call it enlightenment

your thoughts are really abstract

you probably want to explain mindfullness to me

Well its less of an action like meditation

Meditation will help strengthen the bond

The subconscious is in an abstract realm. You have to go there

Why do you prefer this to that? The answer a large amount of the time is, i dont know, i just do.

i think if you would formulate your meditations more structured and analytical i'd probably agree

but i don't like this language trying to depict that you are free in roaming within your feelings

Also, i must disclose... Sharing this info doesnt make me a hypocrite... It does unfortunately make me weak... But i am not where I'd like to be in relation to what i knos

Hmmm

I know that i respond to that more than analytical, but noted

You are a prisoner of your feelings to the most part. Your unique trait as a human is your consciousness that can develop strategies to influence your emotional reactions

I respond to allegory better than a direct lesson

See thats the thing

About humans

If you knew how vastly different my perception is to yours we wouldn't speak to eachother lol... That goes for all of humanity

You can find like minds... But we are not the same

im open for someone trying to change my beliefs, tho i am a firm believer that we are not free in our decisions.

I vastly prefer an allegory than to the "main lesson" its purported to convey

for me human behavior is a mix of biological instinctual behavior and coping mechanisms

Yeah i dont want to change, but if i can make you aware of something you weren't before thats good

I see, especially know, it through the lens of the triune model of the brain

I am still an Agnostic simply because it would not be reasonable to say a higher being doesnt exist

Reptilian, mamillian, and neo cortex