Thankfully, I won't need GPS much because all my friends are in a 20 mile radius and I've been there enough to know the way and I only go to a dentist/optometrist/clinic nearby in one town.

If there was a 2FA electronic device, I'd just buy that 😄 I don't really need a phone outside applying for jobs. All my friends are on discord.

Like a $25-50 Google Auth software token. They need to make that shit.

i'm white male and straight and that's all people see. they don't see the lifetime of medical issues and social esteem issues stemming from them. they don't see my dad dying at 5 and me being raised in a gynocentric household with my mom, sister and aunts. they don't see any of the bullshit. it's just your fucking race, gender and orientation

i feel like there's going to be a serious wave of people like us just exiting on this premise. i cant get a job anywhere cuz im the least likely demographic anyone wants to assist with a job

someone talk to me oh god im lonely

I dont see skin color in the traditional sense. I see that someone is Hispanic, white, Black,Asian, middle eastern etc but I see a human being first. Their skin color only tells me their ancestry which I find fascinating from an academic stand point but overall that important

well people are mixed often. you never know if you're classifying someone correctly.

Also largely irrelevant but I get your point

Does anyone in there has a smartphone wich batery lasts more than 4 days?

Sam, I'd like to tell you things are going to get better, but that might not be true....

No, my S9 is nearly three years old it may last a day or two with minimal use

Sorry, S7

I judge people on their competence alone. I don't care about much else.

Same

Which has branded me a Nazi before, lol.

I prefer people to be skilled at something... anything... to be of USE to society. I guess that does make a Nazi kinda?

A means worth should be judged by what they can contribute

I agree.

No it doesn't make you a Nazi

It just means you expect results

uh well I know Dick White

why you think im so morbid about my life. it seems to have no more options

I'm not a national socialist. I'm not a fascist. I don't believe a certain race is inferior to others. I do think you're not of value unless you can contribute in some way though...

That's normal in my opinion

As long as you contribute and your contribution is positive, I have no issues.

I've legit been called a nazi by coworkers because I am results-only, not intentions, driven.

I get that not everyone can contribute as greatly as others

It was a joke but it has truth in it for them I think. I have only ever worked with insane liberals.

The road to hell is paved with good intentions

Yup!

Which is why I think YouTube had some fat finger engineer trying to do something and fucked up. Like the Amazon engineer earlier this year or last year (I forget).

YouTube is just Google Cloud on steroids.

Someone lost their job

UGH

im gonna get really drunk. this will have horrible consequence most likely.

@Sam Amari Don't drink if you're sad or mad dude.

Only drink in celebration!

Like a drink or two to mellow out is good

@Rhunespire I just WANT TO KNOW the technical reasons it went down.

But I always preach moderation

I would too actually

Yeah... same with food. Don't gorge in anger/sadness/depression.

meeh

its like my brain is on fire

it needs to be doused

gonna go to a bar downtown

You should go to an isolation chamber instead 😄

that's my life any way right now

no friends in this town

Naw dude, your life is what you make it. Even if you have no friends.

You can always make friends.

ill improve my alcohol skills

Sam.....worst thing you could do right now is "get really drunk" downtown. Crack a beer or two at home. Find something to do. Anything.

nah man im thoroughly depressed and destitute and out of options seems like a good time to drink

worst time to drink. been there. bad.

: ^ |

Only drink to celebrate 😄

That's my rule.

i drink to forget/escape

especially right now, the worst time of my life

but it's not though

think about everything in life you've endured and everything you have overcame

the mere fact you're alive is a statistical improbability

i get no respect or monetary gain out of any of that suffering

when you are falling down and out.....drinking is the worst thing to do. seriously. it makes everything that much worse the next day........and the little money you have you're out of..........lost everything back in 2005...............you're a smart guy, as a dude who made piss-poor, terrible choices in these matters............and is still paying the price...........best thing to do stay away from that 😃

so turn it to your advantage.

did you go to jail?

suffering is a false concept.
it's all in how you interpret and process the data surrounding the situation.
interject too much of yourself, preconceptions, emotional response, and expectations, you get "suffering."

what you have is an opportunity.
an opportunity to learn, grow, heal, and develop.

Yes. Arrested twice.

i just have no idea how to get of my ass each day and resurrect myself from this depression and shit situation enough to make enough money to cover rent/medical expenses/my lifestyle of 29 years

in 2004.....spent almost three weeks in the fine company of real losers in the San Francisco City and County jail. Made my life worse, depression got worse, and of course...missed work and thus giving IBM "more of a reason" to let me go

didn't stop drinking. I had to get fired and be faced with the reality that I was indeed......going to be on the street

Yeah...it was hard to start over at 39 years old....but there was no other choice. none.

the age my dad died

i'm 29. basically feel like its easier to just give up a lot. ive blown so many great opportunities.

everyone in this chat room / forum has "blown" chances and missed opportunities.

^

The past is the past, acknowledge and embrace it but dont let it consume you

learn from it

i feel like i have 0% chance of getting job in this new city im forced to be in

You have to live with it. You can't let it stop you........but I do gently have to remind myself "hey......dip-sh*t.......remember back when???? Yeah, watch yourself."

when i get stuck in my thoughts, i go take a hot shower.
when i get comfortable with the temperature, i turn the water all the way cold, count to ten, then turn it back to hot.
what happens is the cold water kinda shocks your system and forces your brain to go into "survival mode," your breathing slows and you snap out of your thoughts.

With a 0% chance of finding work........well, you can only go up from that......and I don't know you're pop..........but I can gather a *hunch* at this stage, he would not want you to give up or curl up quietly into the night in depression or drink or behaviors that are just not healthly for you at this moment

*your pop

meh im such a pathetic shadow of him that there's no reason to even try and compete. he was like a turbochad popular dude

be sad? fine. be upset? okay. Wallow. Yeah...for a bit............then it's "Okay charlie...........what can I do, gotta figure this out!"

He fathered YOU..........and even an uberChad would want his son to keep on keeping on the best he could.

My dad I'll never be half the man he was.....and I am WAY over the halfway mark in my life

i listed to Mobb Deep

listen

tbh i listen to ASMR and Guided Meditation stuff as a crutch but im still where i am

i feel like someone on death row who knows they're innocent man

I have to "do something" Nadia. Clean up the apt, or room (I rented a room in a house for six years). Read. Take a walk, listen top my beloved records (Beatles baby!) and focus on not letting my situation consume me. No, it's not easy at times'

I can't believe Crowder is doing this.......

i just know too much too man fuck. how can you perceive reality in a positive light with what ive seen

Doing what? 😉

It's because you're jaded

he's probably debating someone about rape culture on a college campus or something