im gonna get really drunk. this will have horrible consequence most likely.

@Sam Amari Don't drink if you're sad or mad dude.

Only drink in celebration!

Like a drink or two to mellow out is good

@Rhunespire I just WANT TO KNOW the technical reasons it went down.

But I always preach moderation

I would too actually

Yeah... same with food. Don't gorge in anger/sadness/depression.

meeh

its like my brain is on fire

it needs to be doused

gonna go to a bar downtown

You should go to an isolation chamber instead 😄

that's my life any way right now

no friends in this town

Naw dude, your life is what you make it. Even if you have no friends.

You can always make friends.

ill improve my alcohol skills

Sam.....worst thing you could do right now is "get really drunk" downtown. Crack a beer or two at home. Find something to do. Anything.

nah man im thoroughly depressed and destitute and out of options seems like a good time to drink

worst time to drink. been there. bad.

: ^ |

Only drink to celebrate 😄

That's my rule.

i drink to forget/escape

especially right now, the worst time of my life

but it's not though

think about everything in life you've endured and everything you have overcame

the mere fact you're alive is a statistical improbability

i get no respect or monetary gain out of any of that suffering

when you are falling down and out.....drinking is the worst thing to do. seriously. it makes everything that much worse the next day........and the little money you have you're out of..........lost everything back in 2005...............you're a smart guy, as a dude who made piss-poor, terrible choices in these matters............and is still paying the price...........best thing to do stay away from that 😃

so turn it to your advantage.

did you go to jail?

suffering is a false concept.
it's all in how you interpret and process the data surrounding the situation.
interject too much of yourself, preconceptions, emotional response, and expectations, you get "suffering."

what you have is an opportunity.
an opportunity to learn, grow, heal, and develop.

Yes. Arrested twice.

i just have no idea how to get of my ass each day and resurrect myself from this depression and shit situation enough to make enough money to cover rent/medical expenses/my lifestyle of 29 years

in 2004.....spent almost three weeks in the fine company of real losers in the San Francisco City and County jail. Made my life worse, depression got worse, and of course...missed work and thus giving IBM "more of a reason" to let me go

didn't stop drinking. I had to get fired and be faced with the reality that I was indeed......going to be on the street

Yeah...it was hard to start over at 39 years old....but there was no other choice. none.

the age my dad died