i just have no idea how to get of my ass each day and resurrect myself from this depression and shit situation enough to make enough money to cover rent/medical expenses/my lifestyle of 29 years

in 2004.....spent almost three weeks in the fine company of real losers in the San Francisco City and County jail. Made my life worse, depression got worse, and of course...missed work and thus giving IBM "more of a reason" to let me go

didn't stop drinking. I had to get fired and be faced with the reality that I was indeed......going to be on the street

Yeah...it was hard to start over at 39 years old....but there was no other choice. none.

the age my dad died

i'm 29. basically feel like its easier to just give up a lot. ive blown so many great opportunities.

everyone in this chat room / forum has "blown" chances and missed opportunities.

^

The past is the past, acknowledge and embrace it but dont let it consume you

learn from it

i feel like i have 0% chance of getting job in this new city im forced to be in

You have to live with it. You can't let it stop you........but I do gently have to remind myself "hey......dip-sh*t.......remember back when???? Yeah, watch yourself."

when i get stuck in my thoughts, i go take a hot shower.
when i get comfortable with the temperature, i turn the water all the way cold, count to ten, then turn it back to hot.
what happens is the cold water kinda shocks your system and forces your brain to go into "survival mode," your breathing slows and you snap out of your thoughts.

With a 0% chance of finding work........well, you can only go up from that......and I don't know you're pop..........but I can gather a *hunch* at this stage, he would not want you to give up or curl up quietly into the night in depression or drink or behaviors that are just not healthly for you at this moment

*your pop

meh im such a pathetic shadow of him that there's no reason to even try and compete. he was like a turbochad popular dude

be sad? fine. be upset? okay. Wallow. Yeah...for a bit............then it's "Okay charlie...........what can I do, gotta figure this out!"

He fathered YOU..........and even an uberChad would want his son to keep on keeping on the best he could.

My dad I'll never be half the man he was.....and I am WAY over the halfway mark in my life

i listed to Mobb Deep

listen

tbh i listen to ASMR and Guided Meditation stuff as a crutch but im still where i am

i feel like someone on death row who knows they're innocent man

I have to "do something" Nadia. Clean up the apt, or room (I rented a room in a house for six years). Read. Take a walk, listen top my beloved records (Beatles baby!) and focus on not letting my situation consume me. No, it's not easy at times'

I can't believe Crowder is doing this.......

i just know too much too man fuck. how can you perceive reality in a positive light with what ive seen

Doing what? 😉

It's because you're jaded

he's probably debating someone about rape culture on a college campus or something

i'm beyond jaded man, i dont see a point to anything

Then you are a nihilist

meh i guess in my drunkenness

Sam.......Nadia is transitioning.......okay, look.......that takes BALLS, and to come to a high powered testosteroned forum about "being a guy"

Fight the "Real Man" thing and now "The Small Breasts" argument.... Tradcons are sad pieces of existence.

We have folks by their ethnicity have been treated poorly by just being that

well im going to the bar

We have losers like me who can't get laid in a morgue

RIP me

@Dango_chan Is he saying it's ok and it's about the woman inside not her body?

I ask again........friend Sam.....not to.

@Dango_chan I'm an ass man but it's funny he cares.