Evangelion cured mine actually

if lonely just watch Robin Seplut https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=745wl3EvMd4

In my experience people only ever tolerated me for the utility I provided, the very moment that need was met they disappeared or became hostile

Well @ThreeOfOne, luckily I think making friends and such is a skill people can learn. It's like any other muscle that's not used very often and takes exercise. The book that helped me is an older one that my grandfather gave me. "How to win friends and influence people".

Die Arriers und die Juden

now i just find everything amusing

Actually if we go back to the old crazy fart Freud

Humans desire to die due to the fact they want peace again

Old crazy fart Freud 😂

they hate to live because they cant really connect and feel lonely

@Beyr I hope I don't offend you with my defeatism but I've mostly given up

so they either want to go back to the original womb the peace of death

or want to become one with others

offend*

aka the paradise of most religions

i dunno whats so peaceful about eternal darkness

neither i am

Never give up my friends

Go down with pride and glory

i find that nihilism is a step to actually find a meaning

Maybe I'll find someone in the future, but I'm done trying to mold myself to meet others expectations. I've just stopped giving a shit lol

but being stuck in nihilism is worst that never have tried to find a meaning in the first place

@ThreeOfOne I think it's okay to give up for a time, but not forever. Sometimes we get beat down so hard for so long we need to just 'stop' and reassess. To give up for a short while and let things settle and then move forward. It doesn't offend me at all, but makes me hope you don't give up forever. No one should feel lonely forever.

i guess i dont really know what nihilism is, it just seems very emo and negative

I think nihilism is a necessary step to better understand the world

one must understand first that life have no meaning before make our own meaning

the meaning build on nihilism is the strongest one

i think the lack of an intended purpose means i'm free, and not a slave to that purpose, like some kind of programmed robot

@Montgomereeeee *“But it is the same with man as with the tree. The more he seeks to rise into the height and light, the more vigorously do his roots struggle earthword, downword, into the dark, the deep - into evil.”*

@ThreeOfOne kind of the same. I avoid eye contact with a lot of people... but can meet random dogs or cats on the street gladly

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it's not even the social part I think, it's dealing with the idiocy and ego of people

@ThreeOfOne is that from nietzsche

Such is the nature of human

And such

Idiocy* but yeah, oops you already corrected it 👅

thus spoke zarathustra

imagine if someone created you with a purpose on mind, that would be pretty depressing, what if you dont like the purpose

@Montgomereeeee ye my nigga Nietzsche was real

I really wanna read his work

~~and a little insane~~