The complaint covered the bullying the mod engaged in and the ban. The ban, ok whatever. But mocking and bullying me then banning me so I can't respond bothers me.

yeah thats unbecoming of a mod for such a large reddit

Bullying by mods is messed up. And on a large sub?

Shit I don’t know if this belongs here but man, the Internet is changing in weird ways.

Wherever I go I feel like I don’t belong.

To clarify, I’ve no problem with people who like anime, and I understand why they like it. But I start having a problem when the chats I’m in start getting plagued by weeb talk, shit that could be considered straight out of /r/creepyasterisks

Or full of “uwu” and “owo” and whatever the hell else.

Apparently I don’t belong on most of servers if I wanna have serious discussions, and that basically means talking about cars, motorcycles, movies, games, etc.

No it all has to be “ironic” discussions in whatever fucking way they deem right. Whether it is creepy talk or not.

I just wanna be able to join a fucking gaming server and talk about the game and other shit without the “ironic” talk. Which honestly in my mind I fucking doubt it’s ironic at this point.

Kind of how flat earth started as an ironic movement but then it progressed to being real for some people

Is it really that ducking weird that I want normal discussions?

And to top it off, some dude and I were quarreling and I figured “hey, I’ll do the manly thing, take the high road and tell them I’ve no grudge against them just because we have different opinions”

All he does is reply “you’re weird as hell dude”

Fuckin Christ man, am I really the weird one? Do I really not belong anywhere?

I think finding somewhere you 'belong' or feel at home is potentially a lifelong pursuit. Nothing wrong with them wanting a certain kind of place, and you craving another. The search continues another day longer. No worries

Which is fine, the fact that people want different things. As they say, if everyone wanted the same thing life would be boring.

I suggested having two separate channels, one where more real discussions were taking place and one where they can shitpost all they want. Been mocked and ignored.

Are people who mock others people you want to be around? No great loss

The server I’m talking about is the apex legends server. I’m there to meet new people who share the same interest as me (apex legends the game) and find people to play with, but at the same time I wanted to also get to know people better you know, and be a part of a community.

But nooope, I’m the weird one who should gtfo.

I'm fairly sure apex legends is being the new fortnite and filling up with 12 year olds who have had your mother. Probably doesn't make a thrilling community

At the risk of this sounding straight out of /r/niceguys I’ll go ahead and say It anyway.

I feel like being nice to people just@comes around to bite me in the ass more than it is rewarding. All I wanna do is be kind to others and you know, help them out yada yada, I ask for nothing but a bit of respect in return.

But no. I keep getting bit in the ass whether it’s IRL or on the internet. Fuck should I do? Become rude and cold to people?? It just ain’t in my nature.

You can't force people to do anything, all you control is yourself. Being nice in general should be for your own selfs sake, that it makes you confident in being a good person. It doesn't require respect or validation in return

But then what’s the point if you treat people with respect and they just treat you like shit?

I dunno but where I’m from originally, showing respect to others means you should be respected back. It’s just how I grew up and how it is in my home country.

And it’s really just.. common sense, treat people the way you wanna be treated.

I don’t think it’s inherently wrong to ask for respect in return if you’re being respectful with people.

It’s not like I’m doing it for the sake of attention.

It's not wrong to ask. A bit shortsighted to expect it some places

Maybe so. Either way, thanks for listening to my ramblings. Feel a bit better.

That's good, sometimes it helps just to type everything out. Helps order thoughts as well

You're welcome

It really does. 👍🏻 enjoy your day dude.

I get to read and fall asleep rn, so definitely ^^ you too

Okay, getting ghosted by the people I’ve been talking to and consistently ditched, don’t know if it’s my fault or not.

Feeling crushed and overworked

I'm sorry @Thedemogamer💙

I know that feeling

I know how horrible it is

It's partly why I don't like to get close to people

It’s both the chick that was possibly pregnant and another chick who I thought I trusted but I think I got used in that one.

I gave my trust too quickly and I think I got burned