Message from @Sleepy
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I think we're a long way off before that ever happens
society is stalling on it
Most people are too stupid to any of those things
fortunately
they can all fuck off arguing about how many hairs around an asshole is too many.
keeps them occupied and out of the kitchen
Man
Imagine how great it'd be if God ended the entire fucking universe so we don't have to suffer with this shit
Will probably happen when the universe implodes
or the bubble pops
or the server crashes
or whatever the fuck it is
I want to reroll my character
wrong dump stat?
You ever get the feeling that something shitty is going to happen soon?
Everything feels too fucking calm, stagnant almost, and I've got this persistent sense of unease
Maybe it's just my own mind fucking with me because I haven't felt down in a while
Probably shouldn't think about it too much
If bad things really happens you won't be surprised
If it doesn't you're not gonna even remember it
People have been feeling that way forever. We always find a way to see a threat.
And when society is populated by idiots that like to forms themselves into camps and chimp out over small things: it doesn't seem so wrong that we should have always felt that way.
Well, my suspicion that something is about to happen wasn't entirely unfounded in the end
A lot of shit went down when I decided to get out of the house and walk around the village for a bit: I met one of my old friends from HS, saw a group of people run somewhere, and learned that a guy I knew died recently
The first one is self-explanatory, I ran into this dude who I haven't seen since 9th grade because he dropped out of school after it and went to Tomsk, then returned here for some reason and now wants to go back, but can't because he doesn't have the money
The second goes as follows: I'm about 450 meters away from my house when I notice a group of 11-12 people (9 or 10 adults, 2 kids) and 3 dogs run down the street, probably either gypsies or a bunch of hobos/junkies running from a drug den to not get caught by the police (which happens extremely rarely as the police doesn't care about this shithole village), which is unusual but not too unexpected considering the village has a large amount of homeless people and junkies
The third is: I walked past the house of the guy in question, saw an unfamiliar man shoveling snow in the yard, greeted him and asked him who he is, he said he's the nephew of that guy and he apparently got hit by a truck and died in the hospital 5 days ago; never really considered that guy a true friend as we never talked, but he did fix a shovel for me once without asking for money, for which I am grateful, so I was still sad about this in the end
None of these events are particularly bad (except for the last one), but my suspicions were technically partially confirmed
you walk around often?
I clean most of the snow in the village, it's my main source of income in the late autumn, winter and early spring as my disability benefits go to pay off the monthly bills
i see, well if you think about it, it's not all too bad what happened
you met a friend
seen some bums running
and ok, this is bad a man has died
Yeah, pretty much
but like, he might be in a better place now
Hope he is
This shithole is like Hell, but with less fire and junkies and drug dealers instead of demons
how big is your village?
Pretty small, less than 1000 people, don't know the full amount, but I feel like more people either leave or die than arrive or get born here
ever think on leaving?
Don't have an option but to stay
No money, nowhere to really go outside of here as most of the normal towns and villages are far away and I don't know if it's possible to find a good and cheap house to buy even in the nearby villages, and if I were to try and find my relatives, even if I was successful, I'd just be rejected or stay but become a financial burden for them since I'm unemployable for most normal jobs (no proper qualification plus I'm officially considered as disabled because of my autism)
My dude
You said you drink a lot
True?
Yeah, the money that's left over from the disability benefits after paying for the bills goes to buy food, the money I earn daily goes for alcohol, small shit like SIM card payments, medication in case I get sick, taxi travel and rarely videogames, in some cases for food too if I want to buy more than I usually do
You need food
How often do you drink?