Don't have an option but to stay
No money, nowhere to really go outside of here as most of the normal towns and villages are far away and I don't know if it's possible to find a good and cheap house to buy even in the nearby villages, and if I were to try and find my relatives, even if I was successful, I'd just be rejected or stay but become a financial burden for them since I'm unemployable for most normal jobs (no proper qualification plus I'm officially considered as disabled because of my autism)

My dude

You said you drink a lot

True?

Yeah, the money that's left over from the disability benefits after paying for the bills goes to buy food, the money I earn daily goes for alcohol, small shit like SIM card payments, medication in case I get sick, taxi travel and rarely videogames, in some cases for food too if I want to buy more than I usually do

You need food

How often do you drink?

Pretty much every day or with 1-day breaks, I don't know how my liver hasn't failed or developed cancer yet, kek

@KhromosomeKing wanna stop?

I did, but I failed most of the times I tried to
Besides, it helps me prevent myself from falling into existential dread

i almost kill my self over the summer

@jeFF why?

just felt done with everything and everyone

only really didn't it because I felt it wasn't worth doing it cause I was so just down I had no motivation for anything, even ending it

I know that feel

No motivation, inspiration, doing the daily routine wondering when it's gonna end

You gotta break the cycle

I did break the cycle

actually doing pretty well currently

Nice

Same situation

Stuck at a job a I hated for 2.5 years

Felt like I was going nowhere

Turned intp a doomer

Decided I wanted to do something different

Became a truck driver and now I'm doing what I love

I'm at peace with my life now, I'm truly a happy soul

a couple days after I was really thinking about it, some of the people i would hang out with at school texted me and invited me to a groupchat

and then like the next week we all hung out and had a great time.

Group chats are the best

the group has kinda fallen apart

This group chat is all I really have in terms of being social while driving over the road

oof

But I mostly have my mind on the job

Laser focused on driving and planning

And the good ass money helps

ppf

i kind wish that the group didn't fall apart

Also not alot of women out here

Trying to use tinder state to state

that friend group had two chicks in it