*He went to bed, god bless him*

What I texted him: "You like me, huh? I would like to know a little bit mroe about you. I know you're working right now, so no rush to reply"
>sent at 10pm
>goes home and sleeps
god bless him, sleep well old man

You did tell him no rush.

though, instead of
>I would like to know a little bit mroe about you
Try asking more direct questions.

At least when I encounter that kind of open endedness: I just tell people I'm boring.

That was more a preface of "hey I want to ask you some stuff"

I'm not complaining
I like the mental image of him being smug to himself and going home to rest well

He has a very specific smug smirk he makes; he made it when I asked him for his number

It's not a "mean" smugness, kind of an "I like this" smugness?

I think I know the trait. Have a cook friend who is like that.

It's more pleased than smug

I guess

I don't know, I have this crushing, overshadowing doubt

You'll always get that until you have some kind of definition for what it is you're dealing with.

It's uncertainty

It sucks

I hate it

I worry about it regardless

can't help it

it's a rollercoaster

best thing to do is distract yourself a bit

don't ignore it entirely, but find something you can do that you'll lose yourself in for a little bit to give yourself a break

Can't really do that because my brain does shit I don't want it to

look at the body like a horse

Some of them, there's just shit they're going to want to do, and you just have to figure out how to train it to be what you want it to be.

Body more so feels like a shell and I'm a tiny person or completely detached and just observing this corpse go on autopilot lmfao

All kinds of things in play training people to be all kinds of things. Better to take that into ones own hands.

sounds all to familiar^

Dissociating doesn't feel good lol

the past few years have flewn by

trying to figure out what the fuck to do

not knowing

not having much a reason to care

getting older makes me want money because bodies break down, but that's about all for really

I have a lot of mental shit going on that I can't really control; a couple nights ago I had really bad nightmares/night terrors about this guy I like

The kind where you throw your body around in your sleep and go in and out of consciousness and cry in your sleep

Haven't had one of those in awhile

subconscious stuff is tricky

It sucks, but that's just how it is

I'm gonna sleep

Night