and I just dont want that since they helped me out ALOT

I have to go to work earlier today.. But then I get the next two days off where I can just sleep all day and all night

New Sean info: my jewdar might've been very correct. Seems I was wrong about his last name and it might be a Dutch last name if the company's version of Facebook is correct
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Thats wonderful to hear

...okay?

Oh Coal, you don't understand

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zWUWoJG3rT4

jewdar

dude i feel like shit

sick or feeling down? or both? @Deleted User

both

damn hope you get better soon, what's got you feeling down?

bored mostly

been on my bed all day

I really dont sheep

I dont pop in as often as Id like

I wanna drink myself into a coma

I feel so fucking lost right now

I don't know what's paranoia and what's real anymore

When you're in the truck for a while you start to lose it, all my paranoia and anxiety gets amplified and I have no one to really talk to

just got back from my first con

waa fun and realized I've been missing out on a lot of social events

@diabetes.osz right It's great

@country doggo I hear that. Gets to me sometimes too when the only thing I have to really entertain myself while working are my own thoughts. Maybe try audio books or something to give your mind some grounding.

with anxiety anyway, I've found distraction to be the best medicine.

But breaking that loop can be tough without a compelling focus.

@diabetes.osz 👍

Hm?

Sad boi hours

I just feel so fucking alone out here

I got another 12 hour night drive in a few hours

Lot's of time to sit and stare at a dark road and let paranoia take root on all fronts

Life, relationships, the world around me etc...

you ever listen to a dnd podcast or put livestreams on? It really helps me when i gotta make a long drive in my car.

I get the thousand yard stare and remember why I hate myself

Yeah

Music and green text/creepy pasta readings

audiobooks of classic literature is seriously much better than any other bullshit i've ever listened to

tarzan for example

Another one that's pretty good is tom sawyer and huckleberry finn

I've been listening to alot of hp lovecraft