because i've been where you are rn

Yeah, I don’t exactly mind if I’m a lost cause. I don’t care who’s sad. I just can’t find joy in literally anything, I haven’t felt a single bit of dopamine in about a week. I don’t have anything I want to do either, I want to be with her again. She was so, so close to being the perfect woman. I don’t think there’s anybody out there I’ll ever find. I don’t want to go and find somebody else. I just want it to end.

You don’t have to mind either, in the end I’ll be happy to go.

does anything matter to you anymore?

No

Everything is numb

I listen to music to try and make time go faster but it doesn’t work very well

That’s all I do anymore because nothing gives me joy, not even video games, not even playing music. Nothing.

then why do you keep venting out

It’s the only thing that makes me feel slightly better

It’s very slight but it feels relieving

It works more than the alcohol does

It works more than the music

i don't know what else to tell you. maybe you just need more time to figure things out. but if there's one more advice i can give you, it's to stop telling us you are going to kill yourself or that you feel like killing yourself

you're not doing anyone here any favors by doing so

I just want some advice, I assumed somebody would help but that hasn’t really happened

You've rebuffed every bit of advice we've offered so far.

I don't see how you want advice if you're just going to blow it off.

As someone who actually tried to kill myself once, it's pretty fucking shitty.

I just know it won’t work, I’ve tried this stuff before

And you'll realize that if/when you try it and realize that you made a mistake.

^

When I lived in California, I remember learning about people who would jump off of the golden gate bridge to kill themselves.

The ones who survived the fall,

i don't wanna go into my details, but it's really not fucking worth it lol. it's a crazy experience

Always said they regretted their decision on the jump down.

it's easier said than done

Killing yourself at the age of 20 because a girl broke up with you is weak sauce, dude

I tried to kill myself because my mom died, I had no friends or family, was starving at a dead end job.

It’s not just that, I’ve had crippling depression ever since I was 13

And I'm still here despite all of that bullshit.

Yeah?

We all have depression.

It only gets better when somebody is there

crippling doesn't add anything to it

Don't mean to sound like an ass

I have nobody now, nothing stays

but have you actually been diagnosed?

Yeah

Okay, just making sure

because I've known a lot of people who self diagnose themselves with depression