Message from @BlaqShiep
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Not your fault, man.
I did know better but... Idk
Doesn't matter if you did, you weren't the one old enough to know far better, married, and in a position of authority over children.
When does a man attain agency over himself though...
Im not feeling the full brunt of the guilt, but i do feel like i could have been a better man
Really differs, but that's not something you should feel guilty for.
She wasn't ugly but i wasnt even attracted to her...
You were on some level, but again: teen hormones. Can't underestimate them.
Some times men are presented with possibilities they should not accept
Im 33 now... Its not like its actively haunting me... But... Why do i think about it sometimes at all?
Think about sex?
That sounds a lot more like it's actively haunting you.
I think about her husband not knowing. Kissing her... Fuck...
You were a kid, man. And, strong as the word might seem, she was a predator.
You guys ever watch "swiss army man"?
The guy committed suicide in the beginning... The whole movie is him dying....
@BlaqShiep it’s his life flashing before his eyes?
I cant stop watching it... And listening to the soundtrack
Nah its not spelled out for you, i may even be wrong...
An odd movie... But it hits ya
@BlaqShiep I like a movie that hits you in the feels or at least has a profound impact
Yeah... Maybe he didn't die but for anyone who has seen it, it would be an interesting discussion
@BlaqShiep have you seen ‘eyes wide shut’? That was a good movie
Damn i feel so emotional tonight, the fuck....
Sorry haven’t seen it
I slept for 2 hours and woke up like this
@BlaqShiep time of the month? Lol!
Lol
Fuck you
But yeah
Hehe
Fuck i dont think i ever even told anyone about my counselor...
My mom was the one i told all my secrets too... She died when i was 11
I dont even know what im getting at...
What do you think happens when you die?
@BlaqShiep you’re reincarnated 🤷♂️
Yeah... Me too... Just last night i had a dream...
It was NOT concrete... But i had this feeling like... All of this life has a purpose and its much more direct than i think. And as i drifted into sleep, i began to see images of a different world. I was in a college courtyard and in that moment i seen that present, the present of me trying to sleep, and the ever present now of the universe, if that makes any sense.
I existed in all of them simultaneously.... Idk
@BlaqShiep no it doesn’t make sense because it’s a dream