no longer anything human

I hide this sort of thing from everyone

I was not human

oh i dont you just need to learn to articulate complex experiences

then people dont think ur that crazy

dont tell because it will make it sound stupid

just think about it

keep it and cherish it

ofc i am more reserved than anonymous disc server, but i feel and sense that many mgtow guys would get what im saying

you just know when others know

simply put, I thought I was an incarnation of Jesus.

yes me too

I think psychosis ruined my life in a lot of ways tho

jesus, then god, then human, then jesus

etc

oh it saved my life, after i ixed the shitty relationship with my father, my mom, cut out addiction. started becoming more agressive, assertie

it really shook me up and showed me what to do in a way

I just constantly feel off everyday. Every single day it's in the back of my mind. The first time happened in high school and I'm 26 now

https://youtu.be/6n_xCI-peq0

ignore the profane who analyze in vain :)

I wish I could turn this unfortunate illness in my life into some sort of gift, but I'm tired at this point

You would at some point

I love martial arts, but I don't expect being able to go pro

in MMA

I'm 26 and I only have 3 years of martial arts experience

pros start when that are kids and stick with it their whole lives

and being a personal trainer doesn't pay well, unless you're exceptional at it

Derrick Lewis was A truck driver before he started

I like teaching too, maybe get some amateur fights in and teach martial arts

how old was Derrick when he started?

Don't know.

Could get some money out if but obesity in the youth would be a big problem on the long run

He did some shit when he was 17

just looked him up

He was imprisoned and shit, yeah.

assault

his boxing gym got shut down

17 years old, then shortly after assaulted someone and got sent to prison

started his MMA career in 2009

well after he graduated high school

do u do anything creative

id recommend pouring that energy into that