yo

not sure if bitter or mgtow or red pill

or alll of them

but i think im at a point where i can not love anymore

lmao

im not serious

well. as in, that i dont really mind

but i never had that before lol, not caring at all what women think of you. its pretty good

dude since i decided not to bother

my creativity is through the roof

im making songs again and shit

have all this energy available to me

previously spent worrying bout relationships, women and bullshit

soundclouddotcom/blimp166/forager-2/s-qC9Eh

working on this baby here tonight

well

what i do find annoying

is guys who basically put all their dignity and shit aside

for sex and its so pathetic

or they go on and on about how the ex was the one and how they slaved away for her at the end

and then when i try to help they get angry at me.

@ColdEmbraceOfDeath

statrting to accept that

but god is it frustrating to watch

have u noticed too that ur female friends once they can tell you see throuugh the BS

they start being really honest

and admit to this horrible shit

with the guys in her life lol

like she'd plainly giggle and calls her bf pathetic and how shes wanting to branch to the next guy etc

no

she really doesnt

lol

we know each other well lol

i have no feelings or any ambition toward this woman beyond what it is now

and right now i dont pay any attention to what i say etc around her. i guess thats why i still consider her a friend

cause the hangouts are chill

shes hot though, with hot friends. thats nice too

yeah shes quite got a few masculine traits

like i needed a job, and she sat down with me, designed a resumee for me and offered different suggestions, than we wrote emails together how to best apply

she's really helpful

so im like. this friendzone is not so bad

lmao

and the way she talk and treats her partners

im like nope nope nope anyway so i lost any feels in that direction before it could even develop so thats good

but yeah as soon as she starts asking me for shit cause you know shes a girl im gonna not do any of that lmao

yeah but i dont think so

what could she want from me

shes 2 years younger, and i'd say like a 8.5

24

yeah she is an 8.5 out of ten

and she gets plenty of attention

thats the thing

0 on paper

im at screw up level in life thats pretty but climbing out

i have nothing to offer her lol

she just helps me figure out shit

and seems to genuinly want me to succeed

uhh

panic attacks at 16, mental problems

made me drop out of school

and develop ptsd, bad childhood all that shit

spent time out of work and school for long time

and now i feel like

im 25

and its like too late

so yeah thats screwed up

nah man

we text maybe twice a week hang out once every 2 weeks. and then casually talk bout stuff and what happened

hmm

but

i dont feel anything for her beyond utility

if she fucks her ex or anything or meets a new guy

i feel nothing

i dont want that with her cause i KNOW i know how that will go

even if i succeeded i would fail lol

dude

she is not available emotionally i know her

she is like most women degenerate

extremely hypergamous, cheating etc

and also, does not bond with them. i know cause she talks to me about what she thinks about them

and its like 'he wants me back but i told him its complicated, i kinda wanna fuck the other guy im seeing too, and blabla'

she just says that casually

no man those guys deserve it. they pay her spotify they help her repair shit

all for this pussy

they are pathetic

thats how u get nature to exploit you, why would she say no. women nature is getting resources from the man

they just give it for free

cant blame her lol

the prob is the guys giving it away

see my logic?

it makes sense to me

right

well i say what i think tooo. and then i have said my piece and whatever she decides its her life

it means i can share the more fucked up shit i do as well tbh, which is nice for a change

ya..

i know its purely utility based, i dont expect much from her in any way, not like a guy friend

i know there must be something

that she wants from me or something

i dunno