ya i used to think that way too, but more and more i just noticed a specific sort of eeery wisdom in the bible, about very subtle things. like i had psychosis too once. and if you ever wonder why psychotic people think they are the messiah, its cause when your there, and reality is just chaos. things of xtianity and whats written in the bible just appear. even if u never read it

I respect Buddhism and the Tao, but a lot of these religions have to many rules to abide by, which I don't like rules. I have to abide by stupid rules that Humans created and on top of that I have to abide by metaphysical rules.

thats what happened to me and i found it so bizzare. where the fuck does it come from yknow

Blimp

im atheist i get a psychosis, have crazy experiences. after, i read the bible and read the exact themes and things verbatum

way too specific lol

I had psychcotic episodes too

I know exactly what you're saying

havent u noticed the same thing?

I'm almost scared to say it

your emotions are involved with cosmic titanic archetypal involvements

no longer anything human

I hide this sort of thing from everyone

I was not human

oh i dont you just need to learn to articulate complex experiences

then people dont think ur that crazy

dont tell because it will make it sound stupid

just think about it

keep it and cherish it

ofc i am more reserved than anonymous disc server, but i feel and sense that many mgtow guys would get what im saying

you just know when others know

simply put, I thought I was an incarnation of Jesus.

yes me too

I think psychosis ruined my life in a lot of ways tho

jesus, then god, then human, then jesus

etc

oh it saved my life, after i ixed the shitty relationship with my father, my mom, cut out addiction. started becoming more agressive, assertie

it really shook me up and showed me what to do in a way

I just constantly feel off everyday. Every single day it's in the back of my mind. The first time happened in high school and I'm 26 now

https://youtu.be/6n_xCI-peq0

ignore the profane who analyze in vain :)

I wish I could turn this unfortunate illness in my life into some sort of gift, but I'm tired at this point

You would at some point

I love martial arts, but I don't expect being able to go pro

in MMA

I'm 26 and I only have 3 years of martial arts experience

pros start when that are kids and stick with it their whole lives

and being a personal trainer doesn't pay well, unless you're exceptional at it

Derrick Lewis was A truck driver before he started

I like teaching too, maybe get some amateur fights in and teach martial arts

how old was Derrick when he started?

Don't know.