it calms over time

then i wont have any vices

@CoffeeShopsHQ (Ardahan) I wouldn't call it my "Dream" job, but I see the errors in my field, i come from a race that's known to conflict with law enforcement, so I'm not biased. I have a bird's eye view, so to speak.

@legendpinnen It doesn't calm. It gets worse whether you notice it or not. It's the reason I got a doll. It's the reason you love anime girls. It's a "distraction", I guess. We need to "love" something on some kind of level.

@The Pathfinder Ω I think I am broken. I've never felt that love. I love dogs a lot because they're deserving of my love. I have never seen women as a recipient of my love. I love my male friends and this group more than I have ever loved women. It's not even conscious.

@The Pathfinder Ω Don't hate or try to lose your love. Simply direct it properly. It's a good thing.

@The Pathfinder Ω no its different for different people

Give it away, along with all your money, to twitch thots. They need it for tax funds.

@The Pathfinder Ω i see you’d make good cop! But why didn’t you choose a path towards your dream field?

@machtyn I envy you then, heh. I was raised to be a simp to women. After erasing that programming, I found myself wanting to hate. That's why I have Erith, to direct it.

i believe that with enough disipline i can do without that

@The Pathfinder Ω Who/What's Erith?

@The Pathfinder Ω I was raised by a single mom who abused me/tried to kill me and herself multiple times - yet she tried to teach me to simp to women too but I saw through it from age 8+.

I am thankful for my upbringing, in that respect.

@CoffeeShopsHQ (Ardahan) Going into the military is a last resort at this point. I didn't/don't have the qualification to be a fighter pilot, going into the military is a bad idea in this era in general.

@machtyn Erith is my doll (@eriththeamazon on instagram if you wanna see), I was raised by a single father who was raised by a single mother.

A military pilot was your dream job?

I wanted to be a fighter pilot, yeah. But I realized I'd be worse off than I am now if I were pursuing that. I wouldn't make it for a research paper full of reasons.

Plus it's not worth it.

@The Pathfinder Ω Nice! Where'd you get the doll?

If I get wealthy enough, I'll just get a pilot license, buy an F4 and fly it just to compromise.

@The Pathfinder Ω Oof that sounds terrible.

I got her from siliconwives, she's a custom made that costed 6.7k

HOLY SHIT

How long do you think she will last?

Yep. I'm too picky.

Ah sad, you can everything if you set your mind to it

I didn't realize they're that expensive.

If I properly maintain her, 7 years.

I mean she's definitely hot. I assume she has a large ass. She must be heavy, what's her weight/height?

As of now? 3-5. I'm still learning about TPE.

Oh wow, that's not a bad ROI at all.

She's got DD's and a 110cm hip.

she weighs 110 lbs roughly.

Wow, that's not bad.

Yep. I noticed pre-listed dolls never had a "balance" in large bust and hips, so I decided to not compromise.

I am still on the fence about dolls because I have tried autoblow 2xt, fleshlight launch and tenga flip zero black and tenga/launch are the only ones that's as good as or a little better in some ways than actual sex. I enjoy sex too much still I think.

Well, I am glad you found your thing!

A nice car too!

Yep, glad I got it before the 2019 model came out

It's atrocious.