@Robin song ye its just that i dont wanna fuck her anymore cause she messed it up and is not attractive to me anymore. I just like her as a person

And i always try to see the good in people

@Gabri you sound like my dad in that regard, he is always trying to see the good in people, despite being often sorrounded by people who want to hurt him for their own gains.

it can be quite detrimental if you focus on the idealisation of others based on your own merits.

we have all been there at some point. there is a fine line between fantasy and reality. reality is very sobering once you accept that it as it is.

I always think of the idealized version of herself which i always think she is but in Reality she's worse

yeah, but realize that YOUR goodness you're projecting onto her

that's not who/what she is

projection of our own ego onto others is very powerful. it comes from our own innate desires to want to control others.

But she would be so good if she listened to me and start working on herself

not your fight bud

time for you to focus on yourself

we often down even realise we are doing it because it is that powerful. trying to change a woman is a lost cause. if her immediate family cant do it, neither can you.

the sooner your are able to realise this, the sooner you will be able to move on from it and realise your path

dont^

Its not like i miss her in the sense i need her i just miss her in the sense of i want to talk to her again in this ideal version of herself

that's never going to happen, sadly

sounds like you're still processing some grief, this is normal

it's important to focus this energy on things that actually benefit yourself, though

your older self is trying to latch on because it is much easier to be who you are in the present, than change into someone different.

your ego see's it as an attack on it's own identity. this is a very important time and big changes are about to occur, when you jump over this mental hurdle. trust me when i say this.

self awareness is very important in realising how changes occur within your own mind, especially how your mind establishes feedback loops based on old experiences.

I dont have feelings for her i found my ideal relationship

there are certain triggers to look out for and these can present themselves in the form of something simple, things as simple as hunger, sleep deprivation, or, as you mentioned before dehydration.

yeah or not being productive

your mind starts to drift and not necessarily to good places

our minds often attack us as a trigger to changing our detrimental habits. at least that is how i now look at it after a few years of introspection.

So u say all of this what i think is due to my dehydration? XD

Wtf

it's a contributing factor

Im thinking its because im bored

that it how I can describe it in its simplest, easiest to understand terms. then again it takes the experience of introspection to be able to truly understand it.

the brain does weird things when not in homeostatic balance

also, vitamin d supplements can help with minor mood fluctuations

I Never can keep up perfect Balance due to my lifestyle and cant change it either

well working towards it will keep you busy

and keep your mind from wandering

need some more advice, @shadowlessnexus you'll probs know this - my company want me to setup a database for them with minimal cost - MySQL has a free community edition - is it legal for me to use this database to store their companies data?

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I think i Should not try to prevent myself from wandering

More so just find some solutions