every fkin time

Ha. Thanks for your help.

How can be something that always is?

And always will be?

Sometimes objective comes too close subjective.

Or is it the opposite?

Or is it happaning all the time?

Now I will know, if something is good, it depends on its quality.

@Deleted User material, yes.

are you a material yourself?

Yes, I am now.

@Deleted User and before?

Not since right now, since maybe a month ago. Then I did not know; agnostic. Wanted to believe that saw no logical way. Now I see my cowardice.

@Deleted User what is the history of this material?

You mean historical materialism or other secular explanation like determinism? Is this an exam?

@Deleted User What qualitative, quantitative changes in your essence did you experience?

Tension and then freedom. I combined the best of both.

@Deleted User tell me about it.

I had experienced what I thought were 'mystical' experiences, that I could only experience being close to the supernatural, or at least entertaining thoughts of the supernatural. This created tension because I knew in my mind the supernatural did not exist. But then, when I read Marx and about Dialectical Materialism, it filled the supernatural need. And now I have piece of mind and piece of heart together, with no tension. I have been freed.

@Deleted User Materialism is a cure for dialectical mind. But there are not many to be cured.

Most material is idealist. One sided. Very limited.

At this moment

Even Hegel could not escape his idealism.

but there is a way

Yes, materialism was my cure. But what did you mean by 'a way'? What way?

@Deleted User a materialist way.

It changed the way I looked at the world.

People who used to impress me no longer impress me.

@Deleted User what was the previous way?

@Corset I used to tolerate the supernatural belief in others because I thought it did some good. Now I can cut through their lies and show they are slaves to bourgeois thinking.

@Deleted User which belief exactly?

@Corset Well, you see, I was a Fascist. And in those circles there is a big argument about which faith is best, according to the benefits it provides. Its a kind of willing brainwash. Yes, quite crazy looking back but that was their argument.

Ex-Fascist are best anti-Fascist.

That would be true. I know all the tricks. I have already hurt lots of feelings.

I know their mindset and I know why they do what they do, and their motivations.

That is a diamat way

Preservation and altering.

That is good.

Their ideology is short-sighted, and I can point it right out.

exceptional even.