Message from @ottomagnus
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But then there are other times where it feels like if I am not giving her money, dick or attention then I might as well be replaceable
And when I tell her a weakness that may interfere with her getting one of those three she gets angry- she's upset when I am at work and can't text or call every five minutes, when I need to spend money on my car or just don't want to spend $100+ on a pair of pants for her.
Like, it feels like I am constantly pushing to be the best boyfriend I can, and to still reach my own professional and personal goals.
And all she cares about is her professional goals- I and her fitness are at the wayside to her career.
Idk, I should probably just go to sleep
Talk it out with her
Gauge her reaction
Then sleep on it for a few days
No sense in being with someone that makes you feel this way
But if you can work something out then maybe that's the way to go
I hate waking up overly motivated.
I hate waking up
Coffee
is the answer
that nice fucking shot in the arm light roast
I fuck with espresso in the mornings
I drink espresso with a "normal" coffee mug
yeah
it's weird that caffeine has little to no affect on me
I have regular access to both caffeine and adderall and I trust adderall more but when it's time to go apeshit on something intellectual or research intensive I am all about some coffee
my job requires a great deal of information organization and then constantly sifting that information on short notice (I'm basically a glorified clerk) so stimulants are good shit
As a guy with severe ADHD, Fuck that medication bullshit, had enough of that garbage forced on me, shit practically made me braindead
eh. I take it when I want to, not what I'm prescribed
it's a tool and I use it. I def. don't recommend taking amphetamines daily lol
I'm still recovering from that. The caffeine thing is part of it. but my shit took a major hit. lol
that's some real trash
Yeah
boys, if you're depressed, it's somethin' in or about your life. But I'm guessing 99% of you know this
I mean clinical depression is real and all that, don't get me wrong
but pills ain't shit
Agreed
Due to my adhd tho, I never been depressed
well that's a bonus
Mhmm
It's also detrimental, I could never feel sad when someone i cared about passed away
I always felt extremely awkward at funerals
and detached
what I feel like at funerals:
Same
the food is fantastic at funerals and weddings, but I hate weddings with a passion
I actively avoid weddings
I go for the food and to possibly fuck some rando bitch if I see any
the second part never happens, but I do like looking at the variety of cleavage and booty they loke showing off
@AngryWhiteGuy as he said, talk to her
You can still change things