And lowkey just wish I had a reason to break up with her

But there's nothing except I feel unsatisfied with her

It's not sexual, she's a firecracker, and she's sweet enough. It just feels like she's not progressing in life and I am

I don't know if this is just how relationships feel after a while or this is really the end. It's my longest relationship, three years

But then there are other times where it feels like if I am not giving her money, dick or attention then I might as well be replaceable
And when I tell her a weakness that may interfere with her getting one of those three she gets angry- she's upset when I am at work and can't text or call every five minutes, when I need to spend money on my car or just don't want to spend $100+ on a pair of pants for her.

Like, it feels like I am constantly pushing to be the best boyfriend I can, and to still reach my own professional and personal goals.
And all she cares about is her professional goals- I and her fitness are at the wayside to her career.

Idk, I should probably just go to sleep

Talk it out with her
Gauge her reaction
Then sleep on it for a few days

No sense in being with someone that makes you feel this way
But if you can work something out then maybe that's the way to go

I hate waking up overly motivated.

I hate waking up

Coffee

is the answer

that nice fucking shot in the arm light roast

I fuck with espresso in the mornings

I drink espresso with a "normal" coffee mug

yeah

it's weird that caffeine has little to no affect on me

I have regular access to both caffeine and adderall and I trust adderall more but when it's time to go apeshit on something intellectual or research intensive I am all about some coffee

my job requires a great deal of information organization and then constantly sifting that information on short notice (I'm basically a glorified clerk) so stimulants are good shit

As a guy with severe ADHD, Fuck that medication bullshit, had enough of that garbage forced on me, shit practically made me braindead

eh. I take it when I want to, not what I'm prescribed

it's a tool and I use it. I def. don't recommend taking amphetamines daily lol

I'm still recovering from that. The caffeine thing is part of it. but my shit took a major hit. lol

now all that SSRI and anxiety med shit

that's some real trash

Yeah

boys, if you're depressed, it's somethin' in or about your life. But I'm guessing 99% of you know this

I mean clinical depression is real and all that, don't get me wrong

but pills ain't shit

Agreed

Due to my adhd tho, I never been depressed

well that's a bonus

Mhmm

It's also detrimental, I could never feel sad when someone i cared about passed away

I always felt extremely awkward at funerals

and detached

what I feel like at funerals:

Same

the food is fantastic at funerals and weddings, but I hate weddings with a passion

I actively avoid weddings