Message from @jaruspk
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yea they are i tried getting rid of emotions but it won't help
with out them you are living like a robot
with out them whats is point of living?
@DAnteForneus achiving goals
watch this movie
it helped me with feels
i learned that scoring a gola is ultimate value
and any other things doesnt matter when you on a way to achive that
i only live for shit like this for ardenaline rush that first kiss with loveone gives happenes that you did something great
find a goal
small one at first like climbing local hill
then go bigger like geting promotion
then bigger
and so on so one
and push forward without looking at people
trust me i stoped carring about ppl
i hate most of them just for being themself
almost everyone of them is acting like fucking npc in skyrim
man im acting like npc irl like go to school go home study sleep repeat
acting like one doesn't mean you are one
i do that to thats how we need to live to not to be outcast from society
and to be hostest i stoped carring about that
im outcast like dont have real friends
i started to like being alone
yep we are in the same stage like sitting alone with headphones is better option tha talking with ppl in my class
(i mean of isolation not problems of live)
have you got dreams about doing mass shooting or other fucked up shit?
nope
i don't really remember what happends in my dreams
if i remember they are nightmares
like some strong dreams are mostly connected with sufering or makeing others suffer
and ends up the same
i wake up
and start doing my shit
and then another one
day
end it ends up the same with dream
fucked up dream
and key (in my opinion) to feeling grate is achiving goals and living those dreams trying to memorise them