Message from @mcguyver123
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@thedarkness05 gotta keep it wild if it gonna be fresh
time to drop AUZ off. . . *le sigh*
I actually want to go to war. Im so fucking tired of this worthless existence that happens to be mine. I just want a weapon. I just want to hurt people. And why not for my country?
If i die, I'll die. But im not going without a fight. I just want to fucking feel free
it ain all killstreaks n flag wavin though, anon
it's called "" The Shit "" for a reason
Ik. But im so fucking tired of this shit im going through now, i just want a change
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT
This is the dumbest and cringiest shit I've read viking.
Good
Crucify me
Im fed up
I'm not crucifying shit man. Just telling yah. You told me not to sugar coat it. I think that its dumb and dangerous to say and wish for that sort of thing.
Ig, but at this point, danger arouses me and im looking to release this hatred
Been there king, thats not a good road to go down
I imagine not. However, im not exactly worried about myself anymore
I'll never be anything more than a cog inna machine
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT that mentality makes you a liability to the men around you
Goto a MMA gym bro
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT you got to do some soul searching man. Go to church, start working out. Start reading. Anything
Especially have positive influences around you.
@Hellhound6 what merc said
@Deadbeat Radio I make your words mine
There's barely gyms around here,let alone mma gyms. I honestly can't focus enough anymore to read because im so stressed out lately. I don't want to sound like im making excuses. Like i keep trying to read the satanic bible and i can't get further than a few pages because something catches my mind completely unrelated and i just dwell on it. No matter how much I tell myself its bullshit and i shouldn't worry about it, it just keeps finding itself right back into the center of my attention. It really doesn't help that im stuck 4 hrs away from the one girl who can handle my shit. My friends barely have time for me, which is understandable because they have lives outside of me. Hell, when i git back to Princeton, it took a goid hour or two for anyone to message me back.
my mother and grandmother are helping me with this, and im feeling way better. I'm seeing the world in a different manner, everything looks colorful and meaningful
course, you can't just put the bad shit aside
but do your best. Don't stop
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT
>satanic bible
I've never met a happy one if that means anything
I was wayyyyy more suicidal before hand
Opened my eyes more than anything
You're still not happy. Something isnt right
Shit bro theres no bars or anything around for you to go and get some quality human interaction? Make a few new bros and BBQ and go fishing and shit? Theres clubs for everything online see if u can find some
Im 20. There's one bar, and they're a nigger bar.
I agree something isn't right. I haye the world i live in in this state it is in
Find some things you love. Fight not because you hate something but because you love something. That will give purpose. Love means potential. Hate doesnt mean shit.
I'll fight for love of liberty. Not because I love possible disorder. But because I see more danger in the state being too controlling. It endangers me and my future family
Thats my point. I hate the fact im not free.
Same shit, different words
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT
Yeah. Same issue different answer though
Hating something, you may show up to a group of dudes, but they wont accept you. Hate doesnt beget mutual hate. Theyll just hate you.
Love something though, that being your driving force, then your squad will love you. Ride or die. But hate will make you alone. The lone wolf dies. Not in glory but in a whimper.
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT look, no matter how shitty the world is you can't let it rob you of your goals and happiness. The true revolution starts within yourself.
I don't know how to be happy when i feel opressed and more like a part rather than a human
@VI/K/INGinnaTRENCH/K/OAT If you go to War because of Hate the universe will be against you. This was my driving force and I almost got yeeted real bad a few times in a fucking jewish war. learn to love life, the existence, yourself, and others. then the universe will guide you through your proper war.
you need spiritual guidance for inner problems, not to be thrown into a war. this is why so many vets yeet themselves