Nah fair enough

Yeah shit happens I guess

@LolaBohemia need a hug

do i need a hug?

You know what gives the best hug?

Alcohol

I've learned to hug myself 😢

i actually do need a hug

I would give you a hug

And I'm not a big fan of alcohol cause of personal experiences of what can happen when people are horny and drunk....

see, i drink but then im alone and while i may want a little company and lovin, theres no one around

like...right now

😦

My life

@LolaBohemia I wouldn't be any help... I would be awkward and try to find a way not to do anything... Sensual

eh, i can be very direct and nip awkward in the bud

Yeah but I would possibly then snap cause again I've had bad experiences that keep me from being intimate with even my gf

hmmm

yeah im self conscious as fuck from my last ex boyfriend. my last relationship was 2 yrs ago

I'm 20 and never had a serious relationship.

and any effort i make towards a guy now is never reciprocated.

Yh I know the feeling

Especially when you spend a month making a video for someone and they just say "k" as a reply

I'm like cmon I spent a month Most days not sleeping to make you something I've never done

And I have an issue knowing when I'm doing too much or too little

its just ironic considering im a fucking "adult performer" for a living yet genuinely getting legit male attention im terrible at.

i have a curse, if I actually like a guy, I'm ignored.

But if they like you they creep you out

Or they lose interest cause your not a challenge

if a guy likes me its just never mutual for me or i think they are boring

its usually the latter and then that boils down to a late of interest.

Yh you wouldn't like me

I'm too square

eh, dont just assume that.

honestly, im thinking you are probably too young.

but i dont want people just assuming thats all im looking into for people i talk to.

Well I'm such a magically awkward person I cock blocked myself with the help of Astronomical Physics and String theory

i wouldnt view that as cock blocking. i think thats hot.

Well most women see men going into topics of that nature or even graphic design as boring

Especially when you explain editing a video. Put a date to sleep

I live in front of a computer screen programming, seldomly going outside. I've managed to halt my odds entirly.

@Sebastian Lawe try plenty of fish or zoosk