What?

**Okay**

@Anglican Me and Tim were discussing the theory that religion exists as a coping mechanism for the threat of death.

And I derailed it, ey?

I would be happy for you to continue your discussion of Christianity.

Sorry if I did.

The idea has actually gave me room to pause and reflect on my atheism. Because the thread of death has created in me lots of terror and anxiety. The toll of materialism has been great on my mental wellbeing.

Could it be that it's not how you're meant to be, dear Chopin? I don't want to sound emotionally abusive when I say this, but if something is completely tearing you up inside, You should work to either come to peace with it or get rid of it.

My rational mind fully accepts it, but the rest of my physiology revolts against it.

It's like a nightmare.

Theism or even just simple, numerically 90% possible Deism is natural for human beings.

I know it's not real, but I can't help but be terrified.

It's how our brains are simply wired, we trust in the aetheral because it's how we're wired. Most people who stand so brazenly and claim they don't feel that type of conflict are either young, new to the atheist clique, or are simply blind to themself. If not having huger, worse issues.

No idea you were chopin

**Yup**

Sorry, should I have not?

Yeah, sorry. I will change my name back after I resolve this crisis.

Ah.

But you get what I'm saying. It is your basic nature, fren. We all work like that, and it ain't nothing wrong with it unless you see the pursuit of a 'truth' cooked up by subjective brains as being better then everything.

As well, it's the hard heartedness that is holding the faith back from becoming your fact. You have to be ready to embrace Jesus Christ for him to truly show Himself to you in any way really. You have to be able to make the first step.

Marxism is killing me. I tried to hide in Anarchist thought, but Egoism is still materialistic at its core. I can't do this. I lost interest in leftist politics because it was killing me. Now I know why.

Yeah, I'm not sure I'm ready for the fullbit just yet.

It has been traumatic just to recognise this inner conflict.

We're such complex creatures, and so squishy. It's sad in it's own way, isn't it? To the point where someone can just look into your eyes and see all the pain and emotional tiredness.

I Googled 'how to achieve eternal life' and this is what the zeitgeist delievered: https://carm.org/what-must-i-do-to-obtain-eternal-life

A Christian result.

@Anglican it then makes sense to have an ideal idea of a human to strive for, like christ

@Timo))) Of course, but that's logic. Not just raw human want.

The west is sick in part because they're so non religious imo

The west sick is because modern man has died.

*I shall hold a gun to the head of modern man. Not to end him, but to bring him back to life.*

Yandex (search engine) results were much more secular.

We're sick because modern man created a framework that was perfect at the time. Leading to so much progress and step after step toward glory.

But eventually, he disappeared. And the system has began to rot. With no restraint, it only gets worse.

We're fuck boys; *dark skies by night and red, blinding sky by morn*

He really looks like he's been crying.

Or he's been smokin' the devil's lettuce too much

Is this you truly renouncing Marxism?