It comes from a place of pain and insecurity though. Sometimes I am happy to eat some insults if the person on the other ends gets some satisfaction. But it is like given a drug addict another hit. Not wise, but I can sympathise when people lash out and create personas for themselves on the internet so that they never have to be hurt again.

The reality of that is just numbing.

For myself, it's all this attempt to get people to treat me fairly and like the sibling I hold them as.

I fucking hide so much for that fact, I know you're just opening up now. But I'll take whatever you've got to throw at me.

I'll roll with it, if I can get that beautiful spark from you. It's the reason why places like /pol/ and IronMarch fail me. They're just hateful and aggressive.

That is they're nature, and I am a soft spirit searching for my place in a collective I can trust with my weak body and my aching, feaverish mind. Others I have to refuse because they're just wrong in o so many ways.

**Shrug**

You get it, I'm just rambling.

Sorry if none of it makes sense too, my everything is numb .

Shut up everyone

Yeah, I get it. It's genuinely brave to admit.

Guess what day it is

It starts with n and ends with n 👌 👌 👌

Fuck yourself.

No one cares about your stupid memes.

**A n y m o r e**

Thanks for the chat. I need to go wash away the spectre that's been haunting me.

@Anglican shut the fuck up cunt

@Deleted User Good

See you later, God bless.

Bye.

@Valtiel Shut up you dirty fuck.

@Anglican I said shut up

:)

I don't care, just shut up. I'm going to give you a vaccum to shit post before you burn out.

@Anglican a what?

Gas the normies, autism war now

I accept your autism. At least you're honest.

Muscle only makes you lift heavier. It doesn't make you a better fighter

@Sn0w ☭ ❄#4209 But he slapped my m o p

Terror management theory.

"But I don’t think one can be a hero in any really elevating sense without some transcendental referent like being a hero for God, or for the creative powers of the universe. The most exalted type of heroism involves feeling that one has lived to some purpose that transcends oneself. This is why religion gives him the validation that nothing else gives him. … When you finally break through your character armor and discover your vulnerability, it becomes impossible to live without massive anxiety unless you find a new power source. And this is where the idea of God comes in (Keen 1974)."

http://ernestbecker.org/resources/terror-management-theory/

Power source activate.