She's all those things and highest SMV from 18-25 right?

If you don't, put them back on.

If you do, rebutton and zip up

@RTheWriter Sup

you need to start focusing on YOUR life and goals

@LPA FreeNeko (Hermit's Youth)🇺🇸 I've tried jerking it until I am swollen and abstaining entirely. I still think about her too much.

sounds like your focus is on HER

Congratulations on a few more days without getting shot or stabbed.

@God Emperor Jigaboo That's the issue. My life is solid. I have no debt, a lot invested, a solid job, lots of friends and code/game/read/shoot/hunt as hobbies.

@reagoge I ditched a girl I used to talk to because I got tired of carrying conversations.

She was my distraction.

This was almost 2 years ago.

Popp, Smoke, and Ghost.

@LPA FreeNeko (Hermit's Youth)🇺🇸 I am FINALLY getting there with her. She messages me 150-300 times a day and hours of FaceTime.

@reagoge okay.... you need to shift your focus back to yourself. you just said you have no debt, a solid job, and a decent/good social life

Ignore her.

you got life by the balls dude

Before you're the one who gets blown out by the courts.

you need to realize that you staying with this chick is gonna likely fuck your life up and you need to start making an exit plan

@reagoge you said "I didn't have a good family", then you ask "I am attached to this girl literally just because she was my first?". I think there's a link here. Bad family = lack of *something* (could be love, attention, empathy, secure environment...), and that crazy bitch fulfilled that lack somewhat

Now that the bitch is gone, the lack is back

And your brain doesn't know how to fill that gap other than with the bitch

Makes sense?

@God Emperor Jigaboo She was my distraction because life has been so good. I think I thrived in chaos growing up.

Go fall in love with lifting weights, youll thank me in 1-2 years from all them gains

@Noctah Spot on honestly. I've been thinking about that a lot. It's gross how that is true...

I felt/feel empty without her melodramatic bullshit and constant whining.

What Noctah is saying is what used to happen with me. A terrible family made for bad social experiences.

@God Emperor Jigaboo I am in good shape now. I've been lifting since 16.

@reagoge Now the only way for your brain to stop getting attached to the bitch is if you find something else that fills that gap. Could be another bitch, or new hobby, new job... I dunno. You gotta first figure out what's missing, really

I have every aspect of life fairly fulfilled except relationships - I always ignored them.

I've had so many women hit on me and wait for me but I never approached until this dumb cunt. I am an idiot and wish I didn't.

@reagoge relationshits/ships are probably one of the hardest parts of life to get a "handle" on

@LPA FreeNeko (Hermit's Youth)🇺🇸 Oh, yeah, I remember you. You have a fucked up history, I feel for you

stop being negative

@Noctah Companionship and intimacy. The sex was okay but I loved making her writhe in ecstasy.

look at all this as a learning experience and internalize it

@God Emperor Jigaboo I think that's why I ignored them so much.

I honestly regret not spending MORE time with her. I really do love her.

Ugj

@reagoge spoiler, youll feel the same way about the next pussy you get. "man its new, man i love to fuck her... oh man i just want to fuck her all day.... blah blah blah"