Message from @fallot
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I mean, so I may have a "personality disorder" or whatever you'd like to call it, but obviously it has pros and cons because I am still able to function at a quite high level
which will end, well
badly
function, I don't care about function
and I am unwilling to change it, at least at this current point
I don't care about personality disorders
I care about true things, and real people
that's good to me
so by definition, a hollow person cannot be good
at best they can be not-actively-bad
so wouldn't it be smartest for you to figure out how to just make it useful?
this word "useful"
I hate it
it's the opposite of what is true and good
well seriously, you could benefit from knowing me quite a bit
success in life, this is a meaningless thing without truth, beauty, the real things
real souls, real people, making real choices
also what you feel towards me is exactly what I feel towards accountt and yarfy, or at least I did before I improved
and not just damaged automatons benefiting themselves materially
you are essentially upset that you cannot connect with my motives or feel like I am close to you
you feel as though I am "not letting you in"
and that bugs the shit out of you
I know you aren't, that much isn't a feeling
it doesn't bug me per se
yeah it does
what bugs me is whether there is anything inside
there's a whole world
yeah, but what's it worth
more than the real world
that's why it's in there locked away
let me contrast you to Ludvig
he is your exact opposite
ok
when I talk to Ludvig, there is some diffidence
and "not letting me in"
but its qualitatively different from what you are talking about
he himself is not aware of the things he doesn't "let me in"
other than that, he is completely true
a pure soul, you don't meet many of them
whatever problems or hangups he has in his life, he will overcome them at some level because of that