Message from @Deleted User 57835c2c
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I don't know if you considered it
I think my narcissism is part innate, but hugely exacerbated by having to chronically lie
it's funny, what you said about your life
I'm in some ways the exact opposite too
if I am not narcissistic I will lose sense of myself entirely
I only turned out fine because I had a great life, otherwise I am predisposed potentially to being a pretty bad person
lie lie lie lie REAFFIRM SELF lie lie lie lie REAFFIRM SELF
no see
that is the fear, the wall
the barrier
there's something real beyond that
you keep responding to that fear, thinking you're doing something about it
you're not, you're just delaying things
of course, and if I became that person I would be impoverished instantly
because the ultimate issue remains unresolved
maybe you could become that way slowly
if I were real I would quit medical school yesterday and just start drawing comics and play guitar
I would just make art all day every day
and be poor
would you like to do that
if you could eke out a living
she lost weight due to starvation
hypothetically
she is better than I ever will be
but she lives with her parents and cannot afford enough food
is she happy
no
she started gradually becoming a tumblr SJW
oh well
last I saw she got an undercut
she posted stuff about how the mormon church should basically go SJW and I called it retarded and she blocked me on social media
it was like one of the only posts I even made this year
a lot of people with your affliction use this SJW stuff by the way
have you noticed?
yes
I used to think well of these people ultimately, because I thought they were motivated by love, even if they were massively wrong to the point of evil
and that hasn't changed for most of them
but plenty of people use it in a different way, anyway that's a pretty big topic and can get a bit self congratulatory in an alt-right context so nvm
I'm interested
there's not much to it