Message from @Sir Harndes
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Then I woke up with a fucking high anxiety and sadness
Man depression sucks on ice
It does, you mind me asking what you relapsed with?
might sound dumb
Hit me
im making 20 years old tomorrow
And it always makes me sad
like
I miss the old times when my grandfather was alive to greet me on my birthday
things changed
my family changed a lot since then
and I really hate getting older
as I said, sounds dumb. But when you suffer from anxiety, everything looks like a nightmare
The best thing you can do then is to push till your that age and the same, and I understand but do you mind me asking what you relapsed with? alochol, drugs, cutting? if not its cool
alcohol
I dont have anxiety but I had deoression real bad as a tee
Sorry
I mean, I use alcohol to feel ''better''
I suffer from a high degree of anxiety and depression
weeks ago I was feeling better
I get that. alcohol helps make you feel better. The important thing is that your not beating yourself up over relapse, shit happens and ya gotta keep truckin
Shit changes sometimes its good sometimes ya aint
but it changed to the worst
That happens and you cant blame yourself for it, its not your fault
How long was it?
Since your last one?
couple of months
besides the panick attacks I had 4 months ago
Ok so your making progress, you cant quit anything cold turkey, relapses are to be expected. Your current goal should try to go as long as you can and keep pushing that time longer and longer. its not your fault
Good job btw
I called the suicide hotline years ago
wish I don't have to do it again
most of my time I ask myself what is the point of living
Some say I should so I take care of others
but whats the point?
do I have to wake up every single day to just live and suffer?
Do you want to know what doesn't make me commit suicide?
I was about 15 when my friend told the guidance counceler that he thought I was gonna kill myself. I went there and found out I didnt need to be there. Since then I have fought day in and day out to keep going but what helps me is I found porpuse, I dedicated myself to something greater then me so while I may not make it into the history books I now I make a difference.
So I can see my family and friends
There ya go