I know you will, stay strong

Hang in there bro, were here

today is one of the days i get so stressed out that i want to fucking bang my head to a wall until i die from it

i feel you king, its been a long day

Why whazzup bud?

I got fit too late in life, before I'm 40 I'll need surgery to fix my lower back because I was heavy in my teens. Get fit and get fit early Kings.

I had a relapse...

Was doing good. Thought I was improving

Then I woke up with a fucking high anxiety and sadness

Man depression sucks on ice

It does, you mind me asking what you relapsed with?

might sound dumb

Hit me

im making 20 years old tomorrow

And it always makes me sad

like

I miss the old times when my grandfather was alive to greet me on my birthday

things changed

my family changed a lot since then

and I really hate getting older

as I said, sounds dumb. But when you suffer from anxiety, everything looks like a nightmare

The best thing you can do then is to push till your that age and the same, and I understand but do you mind me asking what you relapsed with? alochol, drugs, cutting? if not its cool

alcohol

I dont have anxiety but I had deoression real bad as a tee

Sorry

I mean, I use alcohol to feel ''better''

I suffer from a high degree of anxiety and depression

weeks ago I was feeling better

dunno how to put it

I get that. alcohol helps make you feel better. The important thing is that your not beating yourself up over relapse, shit happens and ya gotta keep truckin

Shit changes sometimes its good sometimes ya aint

but it changed to the worst

That happens and you cant blame yourself for it, its not your fault

How long was it?

Since your last one?

couple of months

besides the panick attacks I had 4 months ago

Ok so your making progress, you cant quit anything cold turkey, relapses are to be expected. Your current goal should try to go as long as you can and keep pushing that time longer and longer. its not your fault

Good job btw

I called the suicide hotline years ago

wish I don't have to do it again