Message from @thedarkness05
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I can't stand them. At all.
Even when I watch porn, I mute that shit
It gets so god damn annoying
Literally, yesterday some stupid ass bitch was flirting with me to get me to sigh some bullshit petition
I don't even care what the petition was or whether I would support it. She was annoying as fuck and wouldn't leave me alone
I wanted to put duct tape over her mouth, tie her the fuck up, and just walk away
Shit man. Even if I wasn't ugly. Hell. Even more so, I bet if I was good looking shit would be so much worse.
So i am genuinely grateful that I have the face of a bulldog, but that still doesn't stop bitches from pestering me about something
@насильственное убийство good news: not all women are idiots
Bad news: slowly all of them are becoming idiots
Sorry to all of gals in this server, but I am yet to meet one the same age as mine that do not act like whores
Idk, feels like they lost half of the brain and left them in their mothers womb
@насильственное убийство it be like that
Not saying how beautiful I am, but it sucks to have bitches on your toe
Better alone than having some shitty thot after you
I regret every attempt to get in a relationship with one of them
Fucking end my life
Point it to the rooftop of my mouth or something
Felt the whole day like garbage
I feel my brain is frying
Its a nightmare
I love to sleep because I cant stand being awake
When im sleeping, I dream the most joyful (altough random) scenarios
I feel in peace
And I remember every dream I have
But when I wake up, anxiety hit me like a train
Hmm, maybe try some meditation? Talking about it might also help
I tried
I cant
Talking about it is the only one of two things that actually help me
But they're painkillers
The illness isnt cured
Maybe im just goig to accept my own destiny towards oblivion and admit all I do is for nothing, accept I wont see my loved ones ever again and just survive in this hell hole we call world
Ok, just realized I just explained perfectly what im going through. Can't get more accurate
Dunno how some people can cope with it just well
You know what helped me when I was goung through shit? I wrote poetry, i havenr had much passion or motivation after I found myself but it might help you
I mean we've all had our bouts with things. I remember when I was going through my existential nihilism phase. I just kept going until I found a purpose. Didnt need to be grand, I just needed to enjoy it.
Also, the way niche intended nhilism to be interpreted, was that if nothing truly matters, then you should live your life to its fullest. It dosent matter if cosmically things are insignificant, so long as you enjoy the ride and do what makes you happy. Similar concept to people are always going to judge you to some extent so might as well just be who you are anyways
Everyone needs people and it's best if you can find yourself some. The times you have with them are the best and the things you will remember. There's nothing too logical about it, after you've been around a good group for a good length of time your brain spontaneously decides to be happy. While quarantine means that we all have less than ideal social lives, it also means that many are branching out and looking for more online friends. It would definitely be worth seeing if you could find more people, even if you'll only realistically be able to contact them online.
BTW I realise the stuff I say here probably comes across as blunt. I'm not the greatest at text communication and am working on it. All the best everyone. I don't mean to insult anyone's problems.
Everyone has shit to deal with and some people have it worse.