This is why I avoid even female family members

Family members asking why I'm not married yet or why don't i have kids yet

I swear to all fuck man

I can't stand them. At all.

Even when I watch porn, I mute that shit

It gets so god damn annoying

Literally, yesterday some stupid ass bitch was flirting with me to get me to sigh some bullshit petition

I don't even care what the petition was or whether I would support it. She was annoying as fuck and wouldn't leave me alone

I wanted to put duct tape over her mouth, tie her the fuck up, and just walk away

Shit man. Even if I wasn't ugly. Hell. Even more so, I bet if I was good looking shit would be so much worse.

So i am genuinely grateful that I have the face of a bulldog, but that still doesn't stop bitches from pestering me about something

@насильственное убийство good news: not all women are idiots

Bad news: slowly all of them are becoming idiots

Sorry to all of gals in this server, but I am yet to meet one the same age as mine that do not act like whores

Idk, feels like they lost half of the brain and left them in their mothers womb

@насильственное убийство it be like that

Not saying how beautiful I am, but it sucks to have bitches on your toe

Better alone than having some shitty thot after you

I regret every attempt to get in a relationship with one of them

Fucking end my life

Point it to the rooftop of my mouth or something

Felt the whole day like garbage

I feel my brain is frying

@Sir Harndes hey king, we're here for you

Its a nightmare

I love to sleep because I cant stand being awake

When im sleeping, I dream the most joyful (altough random) scenarios

I feel in peace

And I remember every dream I have

But when I wake up, anxiety hit me like a train

Hmm, maybe try some meditation? Talking about it might also help

I tried

I cant

Talking about it is the only one of two things that actually help me

But they're painkillers

The illness isnt cured

Maybe im just goig to accept my own destiny towards oblivion and admit all I do is for nothing, accept I wont see my loved ones ever again and just survive in this hell hole we call world

Ok, just realized I just explained perfectly what im going through. Can't get more accurate

Dunno how some people can cope with it just well

You know what helped me when I was goung through shit? I wrote poetry, i havenr had much passion or motivation after I found myself but it might help you

I mean we've all had our bouts with things. I remember when I was going through my existential nihilism phase. I just kept going until I found a purpose. Didnt need to be grand, I just needed to enjoy it.
Also, the way niche intended nhilism to be interpreted, was that if nothing truly matters, then you should live your life to its fullest. It dosent matter if cosmically things are insignificant, so long as you enjoy the ride and do what makes you happy. Similar concept to people are always going to judge you to some extent so might as well just be who you are anyways