Go to Church. Let the Divine Providence of God guide you to the path he wants you to go down

If you want to be married, pray and seek that out.

If you want monasticism, pray and seek that out.

@GT1646 nah man it takes time, I didn't get married until I was what, 27? 28?

@Ragnarok yeah, but nothing in my life goes right

Expect nothing, anticipate everything.

I think I've mentioned that the only thing going my way is that my parents are alive.

That's really it.

I've felt the same way before

Yeah, but this has been my whole life

How old are you?

It's not like, the last year or two have been shitty

@Iakovos early 20s

Do you go to Church?

No

Seek out youth groups at parishes and get involved in communities people your age.

That's how I met this girl I am talking to.

I go to a religious school. I'm surrounded by Christians my age all day every day

Well.

I mean, I didn't know any of these people, and I went. We went bowling, and there were people from 18-30 from a whole collection of Orthodox Churches where I live. This girl and I met, and though we are simply acquaintances, it is something to work towards and be grateful to God about.

So I suggest the same to you, get involved in communities.

You can find strength if you open yourself up and meet new people.

I just hit 30. Figured I'd be married with kids by now. It's disappointing, but it will happen when it happens, you just have to know when to hold on.

I'm kinda hoping I just have a brain aneurysm or a heart attack or something tbh

This is depressing

I hate saying that, but I really don't enjoy life. As much as I try to.

I used to think similarly.

Everybody "used to feel that way"

I attempted suicide multiple times when I was 15 or so @GT1646

Nah man, it'll come. You've barely lived or experienced anything yet. Enjoy life and good things come to you

Don't do it, because there is always something better in the future.

I'm not suicidal

But I wouldn't be upset if I died

If that makes sense

If you live according to God's will, you will be happy that you have passed into the next life.

This line of thinking, that life doesn't matter, is terrible and nihilistic.

I have no experience otherwise

My entire life up to this point has been that way.

Do you work?

Not currently