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even 'controlling them' isn't quite accurate. channeling the energy is most efffective

someones, you don't want to control it

I always forget that the combined junk vehicles in dead rising 3 initiate self-destruct on m2

What they called "flow"

it just moves on it's own and you just slip into it

hard to achieve

yup

"I am like the arrow as it leaves the bow... no hesitation... no doubt"

Yeah but idk why you’re tryna make me become like 2016 me when that year was hell on earth for me

You survived

Barely

that is the key point you are forgetting

so waht

I almost killed myself

For real

You didn't

which means hell is behind you, not in front of you

Yeah repeating it will bring it back

You'll know what you're dealing with

atleast a little bit

I have no choice but to just take it laying down and wait for adulthood

Anger is the only emotion you know you can always fall back on

It will guide you when nothing else does

It motivates and drives

you tried to kill yourself because you are too scared off letting go

Letting go of what

control

restraint

I wanted to kill myself cause life was shit

fear

I had no control

Over anything

you always have control

Still don’t really

You had control of your life

Bull fucking shit

and you wanted to keep it that way

that's what drove you to that point

You don’t control shit when you’re young

you had control of the way you REACTED to your life