Message from @Bodark Actual
Discord ID: 687519330350399507
It's kind of hard to explain, but even when I'm sitting down I'm constantly having situational anxiety about where I am and I can't sit still
Idk what I'm saying
You dont have to know man just let it out
Sometimes it just needs to come out for you to make sense of it and that's what this is for
Dont be ashamed or discouraged, king. Articulating thoughts and feelings isnt an easy task, and text makes it twice as hard
You're right. I just want to feel like my normal self again. Thanks for the support. I'll check back in if I feel normal again.
My anxiety is out of control and I can't sleep
Record company finally go back, they want to start super soon and have an ass ton of requirements
So that's good but I'm anxious about the effort level
And the time
I have 3 other projects right now and two more starting soon
Pwave is launching soon
First rehearsal with my new church band was a ton of work and very taxing
Corona
People contacting me asking about my plans
Asking me and my boys to come help them when shtf
I'm busy as fuck, have a producer from Nashville coming up tomorrow to work
And I have three hockey games this weekend
I feel like I'm losing my mind and I can't sleep
I'm worried I'm going to fuck myself out of all these good gigs and thousands of dollars worth of projects, table value between now and end of April is like 10k and I'm not sure how to handle that
Fuck
I didn't make time to go to the gym but once this week and I'm definitely feeling it
Fuck
*fuck*
@Bard its completely normal
I had the same shit
Panic attacks n all
You feel clueless of what you're going to do, right?
You'll figure it out sooner or later
@Bodark Actual I see
Try to find some support from family and friends
Wish I could help
@Bodark Actual ima be inna rn if ya wanna chat
I'm back and I'm good now I just got overwhelmed
Everything I want is happening and it's a ton to deal with
I also was exhausted
I dunno what's up but my girl has been hitting me with "what do you love about me?" "Do you still like me?" "Why do you like me?" Type shit and it puts me in a shitty spot because a)I cant think of like good well spoke things and b)I dont like being asked that stuff. Its apparent that I do a ton of shit that demonstrates I love her, it's not flowers every day but like shit. I work all the time, I hardly have enough energy to put forth in video games let alone emotional stuff
@Scr0m I had an ex that did this CONSTANTLY. I hated it. I feel that homeslice.
@Schadraquetor dude, its rough. If I asked her, she would have tons of different things to say but like.. I also have 1500 things going on in my head at once especially with work. I just wanna be home and not pressured into coming up with thoughtful creative things
I fucking feel that. In my experience women do that because they feel inadequate and want to feel good about themselves or need constant praise. It's mentally taxing as all fuck. Although your mileage may vary as my ex was actually just a piece of shit. I also struggle personally because I have a hard time expressing things/being outwardly romantic, but that's a me problem.