nah man, my girlfriend of 6 years passed away 3 weeks ago

Eating with friends and family, and opening gifts

I'm going to the coast for Christmas.

The only thing for Christmas is this

Gonna make roast dinner with my bf when he comes back

And watch him open his pressies

But im not really excited for christmas day

IM MORE PUMPED FOR HOGMANAY BABEY

Never celebrated Christmas

@Firetechy Christmas is for the kids now, it's mostly just work for me, but it's fulfilling work

@SerendipitŸ maybe a dumb question but how are you holding up?

DB hogmanay sesh when

Spent all weekend cleaning her house and throwing her life away

@SerendipitŸ oh jesus thats awful

Im so sorry

so I'm getting drunk tonight, while I wait until it's late enough to put things under the tree

@SerendipitŸ hope you do well in the future man

Just trying not to drink all the time and numb myself

feels bad

Spent solstice letting go

Just think of it this way

i cant imagine what its like and its one of my greatest fears

Tried to talk to her through lsd

LSD is amazing

Don't take 15 hits of acid when you're in pain.

No that is bad

It works, I mean I got through a lot of shit

Uh sir that sounds like a bad trip

But like

Waiting to happen

Nah no such thing as a bad trip if your experienced

I hate myself for getting over heavy stuff easily

My granddad who's here is in the airforce, and my dad's dad was in the navy.

Just wasn't sunshine and rainbows

hopefully you didn't strengthen the neural pathways that feel that pain

It just bottles up over time and I hit a peak

People have different mechanisms

and freak out

I don't touch heavy stuff

yeah